Tom Holland & Peter Parker Imagines & Preferences (book 2)

Waiting and Wanting

Slamming your phone on the counter, you rolled your eyes and chuckled to yourself. You should've known that nothing would be different this time around, but for some stupid reason, you still let yourself believe that maybe, just maybe the universe was going to be on your side for once.

But once again, you were wrong and you were almost positive that the universe was laughing at you, taunting you and wanting you to see that you really weren't worth anyone's time.

Glancing down at your phone again, your jaw clenched as you read over Tom's message for what seemed like the thousandth time. You knew that you shouldn't read it again, but you thought that maybe if you looked it over just one more time, that maybe you would find some hidden message in the text.

"Can't come by tonight, know that I said I would but I've got a date. I'll try and come by after though! You're the best!"

"Yeah, I'm the best. I'm the best because I let you walk all over me and just let you do whatever you wanna do. Wanna cancel plans with me? Sure go ahead and do it! Y/N will just roll over like the good girl she is and just let you treat her like shit." You mumbled to yourself, throwing away the dinner that you had made in the trash. You had lost your appetite the moment that you saw his name show up in your notifications.

Why couldn't you be first? Why were you never the first person he thought of when he was all you could think about some days, you always put him first? You always put him above everything else when he came into town, even if it meant canceling plans that you had had for a while. He was always going to be number one in your life, even if there was some possibility that you weren't his.

But maybe that was your problem. Maybe your problem was that you always put him first no matter what, no matter how many times he had screwed you over and shoved you aside for something or someone better.

Maybe this was the sign that you needed to slowly start to get over the little crush that you had on him, to slowly begin to push him out of your life just like he was pushing you out of his. Obviously, you weren't worth his time anymore, so why should he be worth yours?

"Fucking idiot." You mumbled, wiping your eyes with the back of your hand, getting angry with yourself for letting this upset you. It shouldn't hurt this much, even if he was your friend bailing for the thousandth time.

But it did hurt, it hurt every time it happened and you knew why it affected you more than you usually let on.

It wasn't that you had just a little crush on Tom, you were in love with him and you had been for some time now, you had just never wanted to admit it to yourself. You had never wanted to say those four words out loud to yourself, much less to the one person who meant the most to you.

Maybe that's why you had stayed content all of these years with him. Maybe it was because you knew that the only way you could keep him in your life and have him this close to you was to keep your feelings to yourself. And you did that, you did it even though it was slowly starting to tear you apart on the inside.

Every time you tried to say something to him about it, you found yourself unable to, taking one look as his kind smile and comforting brown eyes, making the words leave your mind just as quickly as they entered them.

Taking a few deep breaths, you decided to end your pity party a few hours early. Choosing to clean up a meal that you had made for him, biting down on your lower lip as you put it up in some containers. Opening the freezer you grabbed a pint of ice cream that you had stashed in the back, one that you had kept for emergencies just like this.

Plopping yourself down on the couch and pulling one of your favorite blankets off the back of the couch, you snuggled into the corner. When you turned on the t.v. you almost start crying all over again when you saw the commercial for Infinity War, informing everyone that the DVD was set to come out soon.