I Will Find You

Vulnerable

SMUT WARNING
TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️ (talk of assault)
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(Y/n)'s POV
Robbie and I head up the stairs into our bedroom. I sit on the bed and pat the spot next to me and Robbie smiles and sits down.

"Robbie, I need to talk to you about something." I say, a little nervous. I don't really know why I'm nervous. I shouldn't be.

Robbie nods, looking at me with concern in his eyes. "Um- I think I'm ready. I've been scared to expose myself again but I think I'm ready now. I want to feel your love again, Robbie." Robbie then slides closer to me and takes my face in his hands. "Baby, are you sure? I want you to be 100% sure that you're ready." Robbie says and I smile. "I'm 100% sure that I am ready. I love you. I don't want to be afraid anymore."

"Okay sweetheart but listen to me. If I hurt you in any way or if I make you uncomfortable or you start to panic, just tell me. Tell me, okay? We can stop or slow down or whatever you need." I smile at my loving fiancé. He's truly the most amazing man I've ever met. I then nod my head and slowly lean in to press my lips against his.

He kisses me back and rests his hands on the small of my back. Deepening the kiss, I gently push him back so that I'm on top of him. His fingers curl around the bottom of my shirt. Robbie pulls away from the kiss and look me in the eyes. "You're sure? Do you want to keep your shirt on or-" I cut off his rambling. "I'm sure, baby. Go ahead. I'm okay."

He nods, smiles and takes off my shirt. Then he reaches down to pull his own shirt off, and then flips us over. I reach my hands up and run them down his chest. Robbie reaches behind me to unclip my bra and throws it to the floor and as he does this I push down his sweatpants and boxers. I pull his lips back to mine and trail my fingers down his back.

His lips find their way to my neck and he stops to lightly suck, causing a moan to escape my mouth. He kisses down my chest, leaving a little nibble on my nipples and kissing them. I moan in pleasure as my fiancé then takes one of my breasts in his hand and lightly massages it, leaving a trail of kisses down my body, stopping right below my belly button. He brings his hands to the rim of my shorts and looks back up at me, asking my permission. I smile and nod my head and he pulls down my shorts and underwear, revealing my small, naked body.

Robbie looks at me and whispers, "You are so beautiful." He leans down and kisses all over my upper body, saying "every... single...part...of ...you" in between kisses. A tear escapes my eye and I quickly wipe it away. I am so lucky. His kisses travel lower and lower. Eventually, his mouth is right at my center and I feel a burning sensation between my legs. I need him so bad. "Please." I whisper. Robbie presses a kiss to my center and brings his tongue over my folds. "Ohh...Robbie." I breathlessly moan. He flicks his tongue repeatedly and brings his fingers to massage my clit. He earns many moans from me as his pace on my clit speeds up, his tongue pushing its way inside me. His tongue comes out for one last lick, sucking softly on my clit for a minute before he pulls his hands and his mouth away, causing me to furrow my eyebrows and pout.

But soon my heart is racing as I see Robbie position himself at my entrance. "Wait! Condom!" Robbie yells, getting off the bed and grabbing a little packet out of the nightstand. He comes back and rolls it on, replacing himself at my entrance. Robbie looks down at me and says one more time, "Are you sure?" I nod my head. "Yes, I'm sure." Robbie smiles and slides himself into me. I screech in pain, realizing that I'm still sore from the abuse. Just then, it all comes back to me. Jim. The rape. The pain. I feel him jabbing himself into me. I hear him laughing.

"No! Jim stop! Please get off me! Please!" I yell as I'm now sobbing. Next thing I know, Robbie is yelling to me. "Baby! It's me! It's Robbie! Try to breathe, baby! It's Robbie! You're safe!" I'm snapped back to reality and I see Robbie sitting up next to me with his hands on my shoulders.

"Oh my god. Robbie I'm so sorry. That's what I was afraid of. Shit. I'm so sorry." "(Y/n), you don't have to be sorry. We can just stop there and-"

"No! I'm okay now. I want to do this. I need to do this. I'm okay." I interrupt. Robbie looks at me with a worried look and then nods his head and kisses my lips, before positioning himself once again. His tip touches my entrance and I squeeze my eyes shut. I feel his hands hold my thighs. "Hey, look at me. I need you to open your eyes. Okay, I need you to keep your eyes focused on me." I open my eyes and see my perfect fiancé hovering over me. I nod in understanding and Robbie pushes himself into me again. Slowly, he pulls out and thrusts back in, still going at a slow pace, my eyes locked on his.

The pain gradually goes from pain to pleasure. I start to grind my hips against his as an invitation to move faster, so he speeds up and I pull his face down to mine. His thrusting hits the perfect pace and finds the right spot inside me every single time, making me moan in his ear. I pull his mouth to mine and kiss him. It was the most passionate, loving kiss that we've ever shared. Our tongues swirled together as my hands tangle themselves up in Robbie's hair.

After what feels like a glorious forever, Robbie pulls out of me and lays down next to me. I roll to my side and look at my sexy man. "That was amazing baby. Thank you for making me feel so loved."

Robbie smiles and wraps his arms around me pulling me into his chest. "Well, I love you more than you'll ever understand. I cant wait to spend the rest of my life with you. You are truly perfect, (y/n)."

I peck his lips and then I lay my head on his shoulder and drift off to sleep in his arms.