The Light We Lost

Chapter 4

Byron's story:

Tuesday 8:27 pm

Julie wanted us to meet our new neighbor and was making a fuss about it. I didn't really care if we had a good relationship with our neighbor or not but saying no was only gonna make Julie angry. She told me to dress well for a good first impression and told me to make a nice and happy face when meeting them. Julie is very sociable and tho she has a bad temper she is easily amazed and happy again. I took on my blue hoodie and my tattered jeans. I sprayed a little cologne even though I did not smell at all. 

I opened the door and went outside. Outside I could see two women talking to each other. They were smiling and looked very happy. Julie was looking very happy and I could tell that she liked our new neighbor.

 I started going towards them and something was off. The way our neighbor smiled was familiar... she had those eyes, the eyes of someone I loved, someone I would have done anything to her happy... The closer I got the more familiar she seemed... I was nervous I wanted to walk away. I was shocked... My heart froze and I did not know what to do... my leg froze and it felt like I could not walk, it felt like all my body was frozen like it did not want to take any step further... It was her... Maggie... it was her...

My heart was hurting... It was hurting.

I felt like my heart fell on hard rock and it broke into pieces...

Small pieces that I could not pick up. They were so small, sharp that I hurt myself when I picked them ... All the flashback we had together came into my head as if it was yesterday. The memory of me saying "let's get a divorce" came to my head and I wanted to cry. I knew it was not my place to cry. I divorced her without telling her why ... when I came closer to them she looked at me with her green sleepy eyes full of sadness. Her long brown hair was put in a bun. I thought I've forgotten about her and that it will be okay to meet her again, but was I wrong...?

Should I smile? Should I say hi? Should I say it has been a long time since we met? I thought about many things I wanted to say to her, but the words could not come out, I could not get a word from my mouth. My brain became empty, I could not think of anything. Why did I feel like walking away, walking away from her? I thought I did not love her anymore, but what was this feeling? My heart was hurting like it never has before...

I stared right at her and I could tell she was hurting, I could see that her eyes were teary. She bit her mouth and clenched her fist.she became full-on red she looked like she wanted to say something. Suddenly she lowered her head and I saw drops of tears falling down at the ground. I wanted to say sorry... and It was not like her to cry in front of people because she always smiled saying I'm okay and that was what I did not like about her. The only time she would cry was when she was really hurting... or very happy. She looked up after she wiped her tears. Those seconds we looked at each other felt like years, it felt like the whole world has stopped and it stopped right after our eyes met...

please write what you think about it and what I should change.

it will help me out very much. 

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