The Light We Lost

Chapter 9

I don't know why, but what he said hit right at my heart.... I started to cry which I also don't know why... My heartfelt heavy, I looked down because I didn't want Mac to see me cry. I don't know why every time I hear about Byron I cried.... He was the person I loved the most and I loved him more than I loved myself...

-Are you okay? He asked and put his hand on my shoulders and made me look-up.

-I miss him... I said while crying...

My heart was hurting, I was crying liters...

-I miss him, Mac I miss him very much....

-No matter how much he hurts me, No matter how many mistakes he does, No matter how many lies he says I always love him... and I hate myself for it Mac, I hate myself for it

I could not hold in my tears and I cried liter of tears....

Mac stayed with me the whole day while Esme was at her friends' house. I cried the whole day while Mac tried to comfort me, what would I have done without Mac?

Mac left after we ate the Spaghetti he made. It was the best Spaghetti in the world. After he left I looked at the mirror and my eyes were puffy... I had bags under my eyes. I looked so sad and eyes were red, my hair was messy and I looked like the whole world has given up on me. My eyes had no emotions. I looked straight at the mirror and I knew that being like this will not help me or Esme... I needed to stop thinking about him. I looked at the mirror and it felt I was looking in my soul... for that moment I wanted to smile, I wanted to look happy... I wanted to smile like I did before I met him. I took a deep breath and told myself to stop all this and get back on my feet. I need to be strong for me and Esme and being like this was not good. 

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