Locker Room Lust[BXB]

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When I walk into first period I am hit with the stench of teens. Hormones and BO stinks up the classroom. Sighing I walk to the back of the room and put in my airpods. Alexa unfortunately isnt in this class. We only have one class together all semester. What the hell am I going to do without her? Dont get me wrong I have other friends. Just, none of them are Alexa.

Alexa and I have been besties since birth. Before birth actually. Our moms went to highschool together and met up again about three years after graduation in a pregnancy class. Since then we have been destined to be friends forever. Growing up Alexa was my constant. So much changed in my life over a few short years, and through it all Alexa was there. Everyone expected us to fall in love and one day get married and have beautiful babies. Thats never going to happen obviously, and after around tenth grade people started losing hope. I think they all think we just dont have chemistry. Partly they are correct but the other crucial part is that we are both raging homosexuals.

There isn't even the possibility that Alexa and I could ever fall in love. Trust me I've tried. When I was fifteen I hated who I was. I knew that I liked other boys but I had always been told that was wrong. I was brought up hearing from my parents about how gay people were going to hell and how it was so disgusting how two men could have sex. I believed them for a long time and sometimes I still do. 

Me and Lex were hanging out over the summer between tenth and eleventh grade when I kissed her. She was lying out across my bed, her red flaming hair thrown across the sheets. The sunlight shone against her golden freckles and made her brown eyes look like liquid honey. I was sitting beside her trying to sort out what was going on in my head. I thought maybe if I kissed her everything would finally be alright. I leaned down and pecked her on the lips. She looked up at me with the most confused expression I have ever seen. 

"Im gay." she said still staring at me.

"I think I might be too," I replied before bursting into tears. 

I cried so much that night. For hours I wept about the disappointment I would be to my family. Lex held me the entire time. She rubbed my back and whispered comforting words into my ear. I finally calmed down and I felt a whole lot better. I was still sad, but I felt a little more free. I had been able to keep my best friend, my person, and more than that, we had gotten even closer.

 Alexas family is different from mine. She is lucky. Her mom is married to another women and I think their pretty sure Alexa is also a lesbian. Being the supportive parents they are, their giving her the freedom to come out when shes ready. My dad wasn't too happy when he found out about Alexas moms. Mom is fine with it, she is a bit quieter about her beliefs. I think her thoughts are that if its not her family than she will mind her own business. I doubt she would feel the same way if she knew I liked to suck cock. Dad was beat my ass for sure.

When we started eleventh grade Alexa and I both carried a secret with us. We both knew about the other but no one else could. Alexa was ready to come out, she never said it to me but she didn't have to. I knew she wanted to get a girlfriend and be out of the closet. I was the one stopping her. If she came out I would be alone. She was protecting me. In some ways I appreciated it but I still felt bad that she was and still is hiding who she is because of me. 

Since spring break Alexa has been seeing someone. She wont tell me who because that girl is so far in the closet shes literally in Narnia, but she tells me about her sometimes. She makes Lex feel special and safe. Im happy for her but Im kinda jealous. Its a little hard to find guys at my school. Sure there are some but how would I even approach one without everyone finding out?

My first time with a guy was at a party over the summer. I still dont know his name. He didn't go to our school. He was blond and tall and his abs were rock solid. He had green eyes that had little flecks of yellow in them. From across the room he caught my eyes and held my gaze as I lifted my cup to my mouth. I hadn't drunken much but I was a bit tipsy. He was wearing black ripped jeans and a navy tee shirt with silver chains hanging from his neck. His white air forces looked a bit beat up but damn was he hot. I realized that he was still looking. I remember thinking oh shit  this is it. This was the moment. A guy that stares at other guys that long has to be gay right? 

Lex pulled me towards her and whispered " that guy is literally eye fucking you."

I giggled and hit her arm gently, telling her too keep it down. 

"I think you should give him something to look at," she suggested quietly.

To this day I blame the alcohol for what I did next. I dragged Lex to the dance floor and we started dancing. Like dancing. She was turned away from me and I had my hands on her hips. I ground into her ass and it was actually kind of gross. I kept going though while at the same time cheekily glancing back towards him. He was glaring at Lex and looked so pissed off. Good, I hoped he was. I continued to grope Lex and she continued to act slutty until a hard hand pulled us apart. I hadn't noticed him come towards us, but here he was. 

He stood a few inches taller than me, probably around 6'2 and his strong jaw ticked in irritation. Roughly he dragged me away from the living room and into the bathroom. He shut the door behind us and slammed me against it. I let out a soft whimper and he growled in response. 

"You think that was funny what you did down there?" he said darkly, " Teasing me like that?" he looked down at me and I almost moaned at how hot this was. He grabbed my face and looked me straight in the eyes. He waited, I stared back at him blushing profusely because I was so turned on in that moment but he wasn't doing anything. Finally I was so frustrated that I grabbed him by his neck and smashed my lips onto his.