Locker Room Lust[BXB]

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Elias POV  (Takes place in chapter 8)

Well that was fucking weird. I know I've been having some strange thoughts lately about the guys, like how their shoulders look nice or whatever but I never wanted to fuck any of them before. When I walked into the locker room when Noah and Luca were doing... that.. I didn't expect to react the way I did. And why the heck didn't Luca look away, is he not embarrassed at all? So weird. Also why did he kiss me?  I know hes my best friend and Im supposed to support him in everything but seriously, two boys in one day, kinda slutty. I hope Noah doesn't find out, that would be bad. 

I should feel relieved now because at least I know I like doing stuff with guys but I just feel more lost. Is it all guys or just Luca? Uhhhhgg this is so confusing.

I don't think Im into Luca. I've known him forever, if I felt something other than platonic affection for him I would've realized by now. I think. Luca and I have been friends since we were kids. We have always been on the same teams, in school and in club. Through the years a bond has formed between us and now I know where he is going to place the ball without even looking. We are so in sync with one another that sometimes it creeps me out, but it works for us and the team so Im not complaining. I've known Luca was gay since the ninth grade, I had suspicions before that but I wasn't sure. It was small things at first, he would watch the guys out of the corner of his eye in the showers or let himself look a little too long when we were changing into our jerseys on the bench. Then last year he started getting careless. I think sometimes he wants people to notice so the decision of whether or not he should come out is made for him. Our team is pretty clueless though from what I've seen so far. He blatantly checks the guys out, blushes when we praise him and over the summer he went off with some guy to God knows where at a party. How no one else has figured it out is beyond me. I still don't know who it was that he hooked up with at the party but I did see he was a tall blonde. I guess Luca has a type. 

During practice I study the rest of the team trying to see if I find any of them attractive. I guess Liam has nice legs? Nothing really happens though, no sexy feels for any of the homies. My eyes wander over to Jamie where hes standing at the edge of the court, a ball tucked between his hip and elbow. He must feel me looking at him because he turns attention away from the drill and towards me instead. He continues to stare and I find myself getting lost in his deep brown eyes. He starts to blush, breaking the connection as Luca calls him over.

 When we scrimmage Jamie and I are put on the same side, which rarely happens. It takes us a few plays to get synced up, we don't have the psychic connection that Luca and I do. After a few sloppy rallies we finally get a feel for each other and Jamie adapts his sets to my hitting style. Damn this kid is good, I've never seen anyone adjust this quickly to a hitter. On the game point Jamie could set to anyone because the pass was so clean but he sets to me, my hit weighted with the fate of the practice match. I smash the ball on the other side straight down in front of the attack line. Noah dives trying to get a hand on it but hes too late, the ball has already landed. Jamie yells throwing his hands up in the air and I pull him into a hug. He wraps his smaller arms around me as I ruffle his hair gently. His hair is so so soft, he must use some special shampoo. Eventually I notice hugging my teammate for this long probably looks weird to the other guys so reluctantly I let him go, stepping back while I scratch my the back of my neck awkwardly. 

"Nice set," I say to him.

"Nice kill," He replies with a grin.

I help take down the nets when practice wraps up and head to the locker room to shower. Luca didn't want to do any extra serves today. I think his mind is too preoccupied with Noah to focus on serves at the moment. He better sort that out before someone surpasses his serving abilities. When I walk in Noah and Luca are zipping up their bags and turning to leave. I notice how Noah's hand is on Lucas lower back, guiding him from the change room. I'm pretty sure Luca knows which way the exit is but I guess its kind of cute. 

Jamie is in the room too. Hes covered in only towel which is tied loosely around his slim waist, his hair is damp, the ends curling.   I've never really noticed before but Jamie is actually quite attractive. His chest is toned and his arms are defined while still being slender. Hes figure is a bit feminine but not in a bad way. I realize I'm staring and force my eyes to the floor. When I glance back up hes giving me a questioning look. 

"Sorry, I zoned out for a minute there," I chuckle awkwardly.

"Its all good, can you pass me my bag, its right behind you."

I reach behind me and hold his bag out to him, keeping my line of sight just above his head. Wow what an interesting wall.

He turns to go back into the shower stalls to get dressed. I take that as my cue to leave and grab my bag, deciding to change and shower at home to save myself from further embarrassment.  As I'm walking out of the gym I hear feet pounding behind me, " Wait! Eli can you drive me home?" 

Oh no. How the heck am I supposed to be calm and collected in such a small space with this boy. Why am I even acting like this. Jamie has never been more than a teammate to me before today. Hell, I never even wanted to be on his side of the court for scrimmages before. Sure I've always thought he was kind of cute but he's always been the little brother of the team. Come to think of it, Jamie isn't so little anymore. Hes grown a lot over summer, hes got to be under five ten still but he seems less like a little kid. What is going on?

"Ya sure," I say before I can stop myself.

"Thanks my mom just texted saying shes stuck at work, their short staffed at the hospital right now-" Jamie continues to ramble on about everything he can think of as we walk to the parking lot. He may look older but that doesn't change the fact that hes still a energetic tenth grader. Hes only fifteen. Oh my goodness. I am not aloud to look at a fifteen year old like that. 

When we get into my truck Jamie fiddles with the radio while I try to keep my mind in check. He settles on a pop station leaning his head back on the headrest. Finally after a few minutes of silence he says, " Did I do something to make you mad?"

I glance over to the younger boy whose eyes are downcast towards his hands. 

"What?"

"I dunno, during practice I thought we played well together but now your being all silent and scary and you wont even look at me."

He looks over at me, and I can tell hes anxious about my response. I feel bad for making him think he did something to make me upset but I cant tell him whats actually happening because I don't even understand it myself.  

"Jamie you didn't do anything, trust me."

His mouth turns upward into a slight smile and he says "okay, good. Why are you being all weird then?"

"I don't know, its just been a weird day."

"Do you want to talk about it? That always helps me."

No!" I say too quickly. The thought of telling innocent little Jamie about what I saw and then what happened with Luca is unbearable.

He raises his eyebrows in surprise at my sudden outburst so I quickly add, " No thanks, I think I'm OK."

"Okay... if your sure."

We arrive at Jamie's house and he opens the door to leave. He hesitates for a second and then before I have time to register whats happening hes leaning over pecking me on the cheek, hopping out of my truck and throwing a quick ," Thanks for the ride see ya tomorrow at practice", over his shoulder.

I sit in his driveway for a few moments longer trying to comprehend what just happened. Jamie kissed me. Sure it was just a peck, and it was on the cheek but what does it mean? Maybe he was just being friendly because he knows somethings bothering me. Jamie has always been touchy. Its probably nothing. 

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Sorry its been so long without an update. Life got a bit busy all of a sudden. With quarantine hopefully I'll have more time for updates. I thought I would switch it up today and write from Elias' POV during/ after chapter 8. I might continue to try other characters POVs so keep a eye out for that. 

Thanks for reading!