Aburame Shino × Reader

Chapter 5

He tightened his grip a little. And I couldn't do anything, my body just didn't want to resist anything that was happening. I wanted him to make the move. But how could he? He just met me and we have living together for a few days now and have similar jobs. He knows nothing about me and I know nothing about me. How could he love someone like me?
"Hinoiri. It's the name, I gave you, that's because I want to spend all of my sunsets with you. Every sunset will remind me of you, every starry night after that will remind me of you, every time I see a tulip, a hibiscus, a camelia, a lily, it will remind me of you. That's because I like being with you, I like being reminded of you. I have spent my entire life until now behind this mask, so people couldn't see me cry. I didn't want to trouble anyone. I just want you to know that I don't mind being without the mask with you, at night only, because of my nocturnal vision. But you are one person who doesn't ignore me even when in other conversations, you don't take me for granted, you understand me and the way to function and do not label me as another creepy guy." He said with tears rolling down his cheeks.
"Don't cry" I said as I whisked away the tears from his cheeks, "that's because a handsome and wonderful man like you, should always be happy"
He cried and held me closer and asked, "Do you mind?"
"Mind what?" My eyes widened.
"This" he said as he closed the distance between us. He pressed his lips against mine. He was strong and yet gentle. Well, if you are this good, its gotta be a lot of practicing. I thought. He was intense and as I kissed him, I could feel my thoughts fading away. I wanted nothing more than this. I slowly put my hands in his hair and the other one clung on to his collar. I pulled him in. I felt one of his hands shift from my waist to my jaw. I could feel the electricity running up and down my body as I continued. He slowly pulled back, making sure a smooth end.
"Wow." My eyes couldn't meet his. "Must have taken a lot of practice to get this good, huh?" What am I saying?! I don't want to call him a flirt or a Playboy who just goes around kissing girls just for practice.
"Wow. I didn't know you thought it was good, that's because it's my first time." His voice trembled of a new experience. He was still holding me close and neither of us wanted to let go. He clung on to my waist and I clung on to his collar. I slowly moved my hand down to his chest and I could feel his heart going at the speed of a Thunder Train.
What do I say?! What do I say?! What do I say?! What do you say to guys who you have just kissed?!
"U-umm..." He cleared his throat, "I think we should head home now?" He said looking at me with intense passion. "I guess we should." I said looking up to him to see him genuinely smiling for the first time in the few days that I've been with him.
We just stood there looking at each other and eventually sat down again. We had a holiday the next day, so we could afford the time. We just sat on the grass, the river shining in moon light and a starry sky. What could be more romantic that this? A boring formal dinner? Absolutely not. I hadn't even dreamt that this would happen. I did have these feelings for him since a while, but for him too.
"You know, Shino-san" I said strengthening my resolve to tell him how happy he made me, "I really-really don't know what to say. I mean all of this is so much like a...like a... something, I don't know."
I couldn't.
"Did you not like it? Was I being too forward? You should've stopped me before, that's because I didn't want to make you uncomfortable" he went back to his formal and stern tone.
"No! No! No! No!" I desperately tried to explain, "Its not that I didn't like it that you kissed me. I liked it. I really liked it. I mean if I get the chance I would do it again, but"
"But?"
"But I don't know how you can trust me? I'm a stranger. All I know now is that I am not a Shinobi, I am from Konoha now and my name is Hinoiri. And that's everything you've given me. My name, my home, my life and my love. Everything. You've given me everything, Shino-san. It feels so surreal that I just happened for some reason to be outside Konoha for some reason and now, I have met the one I longed for. I might forget everything else because of this disease, but I will never forget you, no matter what." I said locking eyes with him while he sat next to me listening patiently to what I had to say. "Don't look at me like that, Shino-san" I blushed.
"Why? You look beautiful like this."
"That's because if you keep looking at me like that then I won't be able to-" I just digged my face in my palms because I was so embarrassed. I didn't know why to do. I love this man. What do I do?
In the spur of the moment, I just got up and he stood up too. I just gave him a gentle peck on the cheek, said good night and ran back home.
"Hey! Wait!" Shino-san said confused. He probably did not understand what's wrong. I landed into a drunk man by mistake because I wasn't looking where I was going, and I knew this was bad.
"Umm... I'm sorry. Excuse me" and I tried to go from the sides but another huge man showed up and the stink of their breath disgusted me. I stepped back, until I hit someone behind me. "Shino-san!" I thought but to my disappointment it was another drunk guy. I didn't think I could take all three of them together.
"Look at you, cutie! Wanna go have some drinks with me?" He said not even being to balance himself properly. Another guy just took hold of my arm and pulled me. "She's reserved. Get out" and the two guys started arguing with each other and I started to get away. They followed me and I could feel their huge steps pounding as they chased me. If only I could do something. I am so weak. If only I could do something. They weren't even fully conscious of what they're doing. I tried to defend myself, but there was nothing I could do. I felt so helpless at that moment. But I didn't give up, I screamed at the top of my voice. I believed in Shino-san. I knew he would come to help me. But they tore off portions of my clothes. "You will get the dick you deserve cutie." One of the guys said as he zipped open his pants and started rubbing his dick. I couldn't do anything but just sit there and cry in a corner. He tore off a huge chunk of dress. I was scared and suddenly, they were engulfed in this black mass of something. I couldn't look properly, I was too scared.
"A true man always respects a woman" a familiar voice echoed. There he stood tall and bold in front of me and I felt an instant relief hearing his voice. The bulky guy tried to attack but Shino-san's bug protected him and paralysed him for the time being. Seeing this the third guy tried to run away but the insects found him and paralysed him too. Shino-san called the police and asked them to take these people away. The police arrived, looked at my condition and the guys penis hanging around, the officer immediately knew what had happened. He hauled them to spend atleast a few weeks in jail. He asked Shino-san to take care of me and left. I still say there in the corner, in torn clothes and teary eyes.
Shino-san put his jacket over me and said, "Its fine now, that's because I'm here and I will protect you" I just didn't want to get up, I couldn't my legs were trembling but Shino-san didn't force anything on me. He helped me get up.
"Can you walk?" He asked.
"Mmhmm" I said before bursting into another round of tears.
Shino-san pulled his jacket over me tighter and buttoned it up. He hugged me gently and I held on to him as tight as I could.
"I was so scared" I sobbed " I was so scared. I didn't know what to do." I cried and cried until I couldn't anymore. Shino-san quietly gave me a shoulder and hugged me until the time I stopped crying. "Let's go home, first. A lot has happened with your today. We'll talk tomorrow, that's because I want you to calm down a bit and get some sleep after that hideous incident." And we slowly walked back home.
He put me to bed after making me some warm soup and tucking me in. "Would you like to keep the light on for today?" He asked me and I only nodded.
I couldn't just let him be so far from me. Even just across the room felt like it was way to far away. I grabbed his hand, "Shino-san, please don't leave me alone. Please" I said as I teared up again.
"Ofcourse. I'll get a chair to sit here, that's because I can't spend the entire night standing here."
"Thank you. He took the chair near the night stand and held my hand until I fell asleep. I occasionally would breathe loudly and remember the shock, and wake up, but every single time I woke up, there he was right beside me. Shino-san smiled at me and I would go back to bed.
I couldn't sleep a wink at night, I kept waking up but I know, neither did he. He was up all night taking care of me.
Shino-san went to do something, and I just sat there hugging my knees, tugging my clothes and crying silently. I jumped at the first sign of Shino-san, hugging him and clinging on to him, tightly, crying in his clothes. "I'm so scared, Shino-san. Please help me." And even if I didn't have a reason to be afraid anymore, he still just sat me on my bed and said in his typical calming voice, "I'm here for you" but I didn't let go this time.
"Please sleep with me" I said in tears. He agreed and lied down next to me. I clung to him and kept tugging at his clothes. He put his arms around me gently and whispered to me, "You don't have to be scared now, that's because I'm with you and I will protect you with my life." And in no time, I fell asleep.