~Patton's POV~
Ever since Logan talked to me, I've been thinking. Should I really be hiding this from everyone, especially Logan? I mean, Deceit warned me, Remus warned me, and Logan even gave me a warning of his own.
Why is everyone so worried about me? It'll go away; it has to! Besides, what's the worst that can happen if it doesn't? Sure, I'll be upset all the time, but I highly doubt I'll dwell on it for that long, right?
That's another thing. One, why are the dark sides warning me about hiding this from everyone? And two, why do they know about my crush on Logan? I never told anyone about it..
I think that makes it a little more painful, actually. I've already got to deal with Thomas's feelings for his now ex-boyfriend, and now I'm developing my own feelings for Logan... Sometimes I forget that I'm not just Thomas's feelings...
I'm my own feelings as well.
And that makes things a little more complicated, because while Thomas still wants his ex back (and technically me too, since I'm his heart), I want Logan.. But it's fine, shoot, now I'm not just hiding sadness, I'm hiding something far deeper, aren't I?
"Do you take time for yourself?"
I.. Don't I? Even right now, I'm sitting on my bed thinking to myself. But I guess his question was, do I make the effort to cheer myself up.. No, I don't, because I don't think that how I feel is permanent or worth mentioning...
Besides, won't it just be better for everyone if I just keep quiet about it? I mean, I wouldn't want them to think that they had to cheer me up or help me... I don't want to be a burden to them.
I'm the dad, I'm supposed to be strong and keep everyone happy...
Aww, shoot, now I'm crying again. Why do these thoughts... Why am I so sensitive to them? Why do they make me so upset? Why can't I just get over this breakup?! It's not like it directly affected me!! He was Thomas's boyfriend, not mine, so why do I still feel so... Rotten about it?! Is it because I'm Thomas's heart, and therefore won't let go until Thomas himself moves on?!
No! Why am I so angry? It's not anybody's fault! Not mine, not Roman's, not Thomas's! Who - or what - am I angry at? And why is this anger only making me cry more?! I just want to move on... I just... I just want everyone to be happy again, the way it was before...
~Virgil's POV~
I walk by Patton's room while heading downstairs, but stop as I swear I heard him crying. I debated knocking, going in and talking to him, something - anything!
But I didn't know what to do... Maybe he just needed some crying time, and boy, if anyone understands that feeling, it's me.
Though, I do want someone to know. I head to the living room - Logan was there. Maybe I'll talk to him about Patton.
"Hey, Lo." I say, putting my hands in my pockets. Logan looks at me and nods in greeting. "Salutations, Virgil. Is everything alright? You seem bothered." He says, putting his book down.
"It's just Patton. M'kinda worried 'bout him. I was walking by his room and I think he was crying. I might be wrong but-"
"I don't believe you are, Virgil, I've noticed his behavior has been... Different than what it usually is. Though, I can only do so much without him openly talking about it. I am trying, be assured, but he's not making it very easy for me." Logan says, looking down slightly with a sigh before looking back at me.
"How are you going to get him to talk to you? Wait- why are you trying to? Don't you like, hate emotions?" I ask him. Logan frowns slightly and looked to the side. "Normally, I don't like dealing with them. But this is Patton. Also, I am planning on pushing him until he snaps and talks to me." Logan says.
"Good luck, Lo. I just hope this doesn't continue; he could really end up... Hurting himself." I say. "Physically or mentally?" Logan asks.
".... If he's not careful... Both..." I say before looking away and heading to the kitchen to grab a snack.
~Logan's POV~
If he's not careful.. If he's not... What? I don't understand what Virgil meant exactly. But I know he's correct; Patton could end up seriously hurting his mental health if he doesn't talk to someone, anyone.
Which only makes my worry for him grow. I can't stand the idea of Patton being physically hurt; would it be an accident, or would he hurt himself on purpose? Oh god, I hope he doesn't do that!
Wait a minute, how would Virgil know? Does Virgil have experience hurting himself..? Jesus Christ, if he does, I'll have to talk to him later. Maybe he can pick up on signs that Patton...
He wouldn't. Patton would never hurt himself, I'm sure. Besides, if he won't talk, it's probably not a big deal.
But what is he upset about? What's making him act so evasively?
