~Third Person POV~
After Patton cried for a bit against his wall, he decided a warm shower might be nice. Though, he seemingly forgot that his face was red from him crying for so long.
He walks out of his room and bumped right into Roman.
"Oh Patton! I'm so sorry I didn't see-..." Roman cut off, seeing Patton's red face and glossy eyes. "Padre, are you okay...? You look like you just got done crying.." He says, to which Patton gasped a little.
"No! no, no, no! I'm fine Roman j-just watched a really sad video about puppies is all!" Patton lied, thinking that was a reasonable excuse for him. Roman frowns. "Are you sure? If you need to talk about something-"
"I'm fine Roman, I promise!" Patton says, forcing a smile at Roman. Roman sighs. "Alright, Patton, I'll trust you." He says before walking to his room. Patton looks down once he's gone, Deceit's words ringing in his head.
"Don't come crying to me when the worst happens."
~Patton's POV~
As I get in the shower, I start thinking about my conversation with Deceit. 'The worst'. What did he mean by that? All I'm doing is waiting for my feelings to go away! Besides, if I told anyone, they'd just tell me to get over it like everyone else is doing. I shouldn't be holding on to a relationship that ended over a week ago! It's dumb of me!
Plus, now that I'm thinking back on it, why would Deceit care about my feelings and how I'm portraying them? I mean, I'm a light side - Morality, at that, which is his polar opposite! So why would he even think to 'warn' me about what I'm doing?
And how did he know that I like Logan?
I guess he's a dark side and spies on us, but I never said or did anything to imply that I like him, did I? I don't think I did...
I get out of the shower and get dressed with a quiet sigh. Would Logan even care to listen to me? He's the least likely person to want to have a discussion about feelings. I can't tell Roman because he'd just try to get my mind off of it; I can't tell Virgil because he'd worry about me, and I don't need that...
And the dark sides aren't really emotional people in the first place.
Of course I want to talk to someone about it, I really, really do! But who would listen to me? Who would even c-
"Patton?" I hear Thomas call me. A bit unexpected, but I show up regardless. "Yeah, Thomas?" I ask, looking at him. He looked a little troubled, and gosh, I really hope it's not because of me... I'm supposed to be keeping him happy!
"Um.. I was just wondering if you were okay, buddy. I kind of felt sad earlier and I don't know why..." He says, looking at me with worry. Great, I'm talking to Thomas, that means all the sides can hear what I say if they wanted to.
"Yeah," I say, forcing a smile. "I'm fine kiddo! Maybe it was just something you randomly thought of?" I offer, to which he gave me a carful look.
"I was thinking about him."
I freeze. I wasn't expecting this. "O-oh..?" I say, trying to keep up my smile. Thomas looks at me, and so help me, I swear he gave me a "Logan look". It caught me off guard, actually, so much so that I guess my facial expression showed it.
"Yeah. And I was just wondering if that was because of you?" He says, frowning, though not in sadness or anger. I can't place my finger on what his look is conveying, exactly.
I feel like we stayed like that for hours, even though it was only a few moments. Just making eye contact and trying to read each other's expressions.
"... Well, I'm fine! Maybe it was Roman? Look, I'm happy! If I was still upset about... That, I'd be crying and well," I say with a small, almost forced laugh. "I'm not crying." I say, smiling a little to try and prove my point.
Thomas gave me an uncertain look, almost looking like he doubted me. Great. "Welp, I'm going to go back to my room now, okay?" I say, forcing my smile to grow. Thomas only nods, and I sink out to the mindscape.
"You're a liar now? Looks like you're losing your purpose, Morality. Better step it up before you run yourself dry." I hear someone say behind me, making me jump and turn around. Remus. A side Thomas doesn't know about yet.
"Why are you here? Leave me alone, please, I have chores to do." I tell him, shaking my head and trying to walk away.
But of course, he follows me.
"Come on, Patton, you're going to make my job real easy if you keep this up. I mean, I'm supposed to be intrusive thoughts, and you're going to end up having them if you don't talk to your little crushy-wushy." He says with that.. Dark smirk of his.
"I won't have intrusive thoughts, Remus," I say, grabbing the clothes out of the washer and putting them in the dryer. "I'm fine. If I wasn't fine, they'd know. Besides, I don't- Logan isn't-"
"Oh, don't even try that. You're in love with him and you know it. Look, I'm just saying, if you keep this up, you're going to put yourself into a dark place, compadre. See ya!" He says, leaving me alone.
A dark place? No. This feeling is only temporary; I'll get better. It'll be better soon. All I have to do is wait.
It has to get better soon. It has to.
