Star Wars Rebels

Learning To Forgive

I let out a sigh as I went through the motions with my lightsaber. I heard footsteps behind me and put my sabers up and turned to look at them.

"Ahsoka, if you are looking for Kanan he is on a mission." I said softly.

"I wanted to talk with you, actually." She said softly.

I nodded my head and she motioned for me to sit beside her on the bench.

"I knew who you were the moment I saw you." She said softly.

I let out a sigh and looked at my hands.

"I didn't say anything because I thought you didn't know who I was. But I did want to tell you."

"Why did you give me to Lux?" I asked softly.

"Because me and your father were on the run, and I wanted you to have a normal life.... (Y/n), me and Rex always loved you... we never wanted to let you go." She said softly.

"I know, but I don't see you as my parents... I wasn't raised by you. I will always love both of you, but if it wasn't for Zeb... I wouldn't be here." I said softly.

"I know, and I'm thankful for him... I have to go, I'm going with Kanan and Ezra on a mission soon... I'll talk to you again." She said as she stood up.

She sent me a smile and then turned and walked away. It wasn't long before Kanan returned and i learned they where going to a sith temple.

"(Y/n), I want you to go with us." Kanan said softly.

"Great, this will be fun." I said as I let out a sigh.

The trip wasn't long and when we arrived we got separated. I walked through a dark hallway and stopped when I made it to the door at the end. I gently placed my hand on the door knob and pushed the door open. I walked inside and froze as I saw a broken down room. I saw a holopicture on the stand and gently walked up to it.

"That was our first date." A voice said.

I quickly turned around and ignited my saber. In front of me was a tall man with jet black hair and sparking green eyes. He sent me a smile and leaned back against the wall.

"I remember we had just turned fifteen and I asked you to have dinner with me, best day of my life." He said softly.

"Thomas-"

"That is until you killed me." He growled out.

His eyes flashed red and I backed away from him. I hit the wall and he let out a chuckle as he stopped.

"Thomas, I'm-"

"He is cute, that Lando fellow." He said softly.

I froze up and saw a smile break on his face.

"But if he is smart he will stay away from you, you break everything you touch." He said as he roughly grabbed me and slammed me through the wall.

I shot up and looked around and saw that he was gone.

"(Y/n)! Stop!" A voice yelled.

I turned around and saw June holding Maia to her. I saw Lux in front of her blocking her from me. I saw tears in my eyes as I walked towards them.

"I'm sorry... I didn't-"

"Stay back!" June yelled.

"I-"

"You're a monster!" June yelled.

"Please! I'm sorry!" I exclaimed.

"Leave! You're nothing! I hate you!" Maia yelled.

I looked at Lux and he shook his head. I let out a sob as I turned and ran out of the house.

I felt tears of my own start to fall as I watched everything unfold.

"I never wanted you!" A voice yelled.

"You're not even my real sister!"

"I wish you were never born."

"I didn't ask to be born!" I yelled.

I turned around and saw Maia against the wall.

"I didn't ask for my parents to abandon me! I didn't ask for Lux to take me in! All I wanted was a family!" I yelled.

She gasped for air and my eyes went wide as I dropped her. She disappeared and I let out a sob as I fell to the ground.

"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry. I hurt all of you... I never wanted to lose any of you." I cried out.

"Just like you'll hurt Lando, and Zeb.... Zeb will die protecting you."

"Not if I stop it.... I won't let any of them die! I'm tired of you controlling my life! You're dead and I can't change that! I can't go back and stop myself from killing you no matter how much I wish I could... I'm sorry and that's all I can say... I wish I didn't hurt you but I did... but I have to let you go." I said softly.

"That's all I wanted." He said with a small smile.

"What?" I asked shocked.

"I don't hate you (Y/n), I never did.... I just wanted you to forgive yourself... and to fight... never stop fighting."

I felt tears stream down my face as he disappeared and I was left alone. I soon regrouped with Kanan and the others and we were forced to fight inquisitors.

"They won't stay gone for long." The man Ezra brought with him said.

"Okay who are you?" I asked angrily.

"Maul." He said calmly.

I sent Ezra a look and he smiled softly.

"He is a friend." He explained.

"If you say so." I said a s I followed them.

I soon was left with Kanan and I let out a sigh.

"What's wrong?" He asked as we waited for the lift.

"I have a bad feeling about this mission." I said softly.

"Quiet worrying everything will be fine."

"Kanan.... I want you to know that, no matter what happens... you are one of my best friends." I said as I sent him a small smile.

"And your one of mine."

We soon got into another fight with the inquisitors and I watched Ezra race to the top. When it was over I watched Maul attack Kanan.

"Kanan!" I yelled as I brought my saber out.

"Go help Ezra! I'll hold off Maul!" Ahsoka ordered.

I nodded my head and rushed to help Ezra. I made it to the top I saw Ezra fighting Vader. I pulled out my sabers and ignited them.

"I thought I sensed you." He said as he turned to look at me.

He walked towards me and I took my stance. I charged at him and he blocked my attacks. I was soon thrown to the ground and I let out a gasp as I felt a sharp pain in my back.

"You have gotten stronger, just not strong enough." He said as everything went dark.

"No!" A voice yelled.