Undeserving of Your Sympathy (Frerard)

7. Torn and Frayed

Some few hours later, Gerard woke up to his parents screaming across the hall. It was very loud and he could hear each word clearly. Lots of cursing was going on. He looked over at Mikey's bed. Mikey was awake too. He looked more scared than usual, but as always, he was a nice brother so even though Mikey was younger, he treated Gerard as if he was younger.

Mikey went over to Gerard and handed him his headphones. Before Gerard put them on, a very loud scream came from their mom. The yelling was usually always their dad but this time she yelled and they heard something shatter. Gerard being very emotional started to cry. Mikey showed little emotion but he helped Gerard put his headphones on. He put on some music and played it loud enough to drown out any sound.

Mikey didn't. He just sat there secretly crying too. He would listen and it broke his heart what he heard.

"IT'S ALL GERARD'S FAULT!! THAT'S WHY I WANTED ANOTHER KID! SO WE COULD SEND HIM TO FOSTER CARE! HE'S NEVER GONNA TALK. HE'S FUCKING RETARDED!" his dad yelled throwing a vase.

"DON'T THROW THAT AT ME!"

Mikey knew he couldn't interfere but he never knew it was about Gerard.

'Every night! Mikey is the only one with a good future. And he spends too much time with Gerard. He hangs out with no other friends!"

"Don't talk about my son like that!"

"Your son? He's just the same as mine! I want to send him to a boarding school. Some special one."

"No! That is not good for him!"

Mikey started crying. He didn't know his parents felt that way about Gerard.

"If you care so much, you never hang out with them!"

"Mikey and Gerard always are with each other! I still love them!"

"SHUT UP WHORE!"

"You're drunk Donald!"

"Maybe if you didn't drink when you had Gerard, he'd be normal!"

Mikey heard a huge slam. The door banged wide open. Mikey heard loud footsteps and they were coming their way.

He saw their dad come in and he smelled of alcohol. The light turned on and he went over to Gerard.

He ripped the headphones off. Mikey could see Gerard was terrified. He covered his face.

"Get up! And what the fuck is this ridiculous hairstyle? You look like a homosexual. I didn't raise you to be like this!"

"Stop!" Mikey shouted.

"Stay out of this Michael! You're my only good son."

By now Gerard was fully hyperventilating. His father pulled him by his hair and slammed his head into the bedframe. He felt a bit dizzy and his nose started to bleed.

That was until their mom came in. She had a taser for emergencies and tasered him so he couldn't move.

"Come here Gerard. I'm sorry. Come here too Mikey. Mom is going to try to be better now," she said hugging them. Gerard buried his face in her chest just like how he used to when he was younger.

Mikey got some tissues and while their father was coming back to consciousness.

Gerard was so upset. He just wanted to sleep through everything. He wish he never woke up.

When their father woke up, he just took his car keys and left.

"Are you calling the police?" Mikey asked

"No honey. I can't. Try to get some sleep. I'm sorry. If you don't feel like going to school tomorrow, you don't have to Mikey." Mikey got into his bed but Gerard was still very upset, his whole head still hurt and started hitting himself. He felt like a screw up. Maybe he was. Maybe he did look awful. No one liked him except Mikey and maybe his mom. Frank was probably another chapter in the book that will be forgotten about.

If frank cared, he'd be comfortable sharing anything. If he cared, he would ask how life at home is. If he cared... but he does care! Gerard's intrusive thoughts were getting in the way. He slammed his head again into the corner of his nightstand, it hurt so much he started to bleed.

He felt his mom hold him and restrain him from hitting himself. "I like your hair Gerard. It's beautiful. I'm so sorry for being a bad parent. Please don't hurt yourself." He stroked his hair and rocked him like old times.

Gerard felt like telling her it's okay but she didn't know much sign language. Only Mikey did.

"I think we need to go to the hospital."

"What about dad?" Asked Mikey.

"He's not coming back for a while. Get ready to go in the car. Gerard will sit in the back with you."

She quickly got in and Mikey held a towel to Gerard's head as their mom drove to the nearest hospital. Gerard was still crying.

When they arrived, Mikey carried Gerard and he was taller. He also noticed Gerard felt lighter than usual. They got in and right away someone saw them.

Gerard had given himself a pretty big gash which needed stitches. Gerard hated any needles so he freaked out. They had to bring in these big people to hold him down. It was torture for Gerard but finally the doctor finished.

Gerard walked on his own back to the car with the bandage on his head. The doctors said so Gerard wouldn't rip them out, he should wear a helmet at least for the first two days.

"Fuck this," Gerard signed to Mikey.

"You'll only have to wear one if you decided to hurt yourself more or take out your stitches."

It was three am and their mom said to get some sleep. Mikey said he'll still go to school the next day and Gerard was going to work because he wanted to see Frank. Frank made him smile. But he also had to see his therapist which he wasn't happy about.

Gerard made a list on paper because he would forget. He wanted to change. Just before getting a few more hours of sleep, he wrote:

Don't open up to Dr. Toro

Eat less

Don't take medication.

Look good for Frank :)

That seemed reasonable. Anything to be perfect for Frank.

2nd chapter in a day 😀

Next week is break for me so I'll have more updates