Sunny's Diary

[27] Gone

Dear Diary,

I'm messed up.

I never got the chance to do anything I REALLY wanted to do there, in Addison High.

I was REALLY counting on another year there. I was TOO happy to remember that we always moved!

Remember? We always transfered?

Yeah.

So I'm here now. Eating lunch in a new school, with my new friends.

The thing is, I never forgot them, I never forgot HIM.

I never stopped.

I always wondered what it'd feel like to give into his flirting, give into the fact that I liked him, but that's it. I only wondered.

I cried a few times--- that's a lie, I cried a lot.

I shed tear after tear, knowing I'll never see him again.

Its been over a year, and I still like him. Yes, I tried moving on, but it was impossible.

No one would ever treat me like he did. And I don't think I want anyone else to.

I chose friendship over a guy I really liked... and I might seem selfish, but I kinda wished I didn't.

Oh, and I've forbidden his name to be said. We go with HIM or HE now.

Do you think Holly would hate me if I ever made a move?

Stop it, Sunny! You'll never see him again, forget him.

Valentine.

Fuck, it sounds so good to say his name again.

I don't love him though. I couldn't. I'm just not ready for that. I only LIKE him.

Its always the guy who screws up, right? I've read enough books to know that.

But... why didn't Valentine break my heart? Like the typical playboy would?

Damn, if he did, I wouldn't have a reason to hold onto my feelings that just won't go away.

But in reality, girls aren't that perfect either. We all screw up sometimes, right?

This time, I'm the one who screwed up. Moving to another school was one BIG screw up.

And I couldn't forget him, since he never broke my heart.

I broke it myself.

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The next update would epilogue.

... ik you probably hated this ending , but what would the title be for if Sunny was never 'broken'?

Anyway, idk. I guess my story was over when I left.

I won't say anything though. But... I'm still deciding on a sequel.

Idk if I'm even ready to share the rest of my story, since its kinda personal, but imma gonna decide if I'm going to make a sequel.

But he question is... do YOU want a sequel?

P.S. the epilogue will be posted later today :)