Change (a Hayes Grier fanfiction)

Forty

"Please stay." Hayes says to me before going onto his plane.

"Ok." I tell him

"Really?"

"No."

"Oh."

"Just kidding!"

"Really?"

"No I'm staying."

"CC decide.... are you staying or leaving?"

I woke up from my dream (yes it was a dream) with a small amount of sweat on my forehead. Do I want to stay? Or should I go with him.

"CC time to get up, we have to bring the boys to the airport." My aunt says from the hallway. I peel the thin sheets off my body and go into my bathroom and closet. I open up some drawers and after having a debate I choose on galaxy leggings under my black high-waisted shorts and a deep blue tank top with a black vest. I barely put on makeup and then put some product in my hair to make it wavy.

After being satisfied with myself in the mirror I slipped on some combat boots and went into the kitchen, none of the boys were there. They must be getting ready or packing some last minute stuff. I put a piece of toast into the toaster and got the Nutella.

I remember when Hayes was climbing up my wall and crushing my roses. I yelled at him for that but he said that they would survive.

Then he came in and I did everything I could to get him to go away.

I played Livin' on Love by AJR to get him to go away. Yah I went that low.

If only the times were simpler and everything was like it was three months ago. We were all happy and normal, no crazy fathers and crazy brothers, no car accidents, no drugs, just happiness.

I remember when we would all be at my house doing homework and making stupid vines.

Oh how those boys love vine. When the fans found out that Taylor died they were devastated. I don't think this will be forgotten by them.

Worse of all I can't even make up my mind if I want to stay with the guys. It's not the same but yet it wouldn't have ever been the same. I ran away when Taylor was alive and now that he's dead it does make a difference but not in a way that I am thinking. For me it feels like when I ran away he was dead, well he was dead to me. Now he actually is dead and I would kill for him to be here today holding me and telling me that it's going to be alright.

"Come on honey we have to go." My aunt beckons me to the car, I reluctantly follow and stay silent, that's how it was the whole way there. We got to the airport and the boys checks some of their bags. All the while I stay silent and in the back.

It was the usual, one or two fans asking for pictures has once realizing who I am tell me how sorry they were and how amazing Taylor was when he was here.

I smile at them and tell them to have a nice day, they usually smile back and walk away.

We got to security and this was as far as I could go without a ticket.

"Are you staying or are you leaving?" Hayes asks me one last time.

"I- I'm staying." I could see the hurt in his eyes. "I need time to sort things out for myself with an actual adult, I'm sure one day I could come back but I really need to find myself, after Taylor and everything that I've done I need time, that's all I'm asking for."

"How long?" He says with tears in his eyes.

"I don't know."

"I understand, but I need you to understand this. I will always be your first love and you will always be mine. No matter how many other guys there are I will be the first. You changed me for the better and no matter what you say I know you changed for the better too. I will love you forever and when you do come back even if it's not in this lifetime I will always say yes. I love you CC and I accept you for everything you are."

I had tears in my eyes and he was holding my hand. I gave him a tight hug and he hugged me back, we both knew this goodbye was for a while. I bid my goodbyes to the others and watched as they went through security. Before he walked through the tunnel to go into the gates Hayes looked back at me and smiled and waved goodbye.

He did change me for the better.

Now I need to change myself.

A/N

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!! I hate this holiday but whatever I like the colors. I like Christmas better, just saying.

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