it's been a long time,
i mean that memories still in my head,like you are the one only someone who i like it.
like you die last year.
i'm not wishing you die,absolutely not.
you just disappeared.
but not in my head.
i dunno why my head keep playing your face,your smile,your voices, your action and your cuteness things.
like i little bit crazy about it.
time flies, but still you stuck in my head.
the night that you left me.
now,i'm not mad like that night.
i'm not hate you like that night,
luckily you are save now.
my feeling to ka keep disappeared.
you know that i like him for 3 years.
ah,you dunno about that.
i keep sorry about why i can't show you that i cares with you a lot.
not with you when you need me.
actually, i was scared.
that you will left me if i show my feeling like before.
should be 2 time okay?
i'm fooled by you.
i don't want you to hurt me again.
i just want to save my pride.
i just want to take cares with my heart actually.
tbh,you hurt me more than i hurt you.
now we even.
hope you understand.
but still i'm sorry for everything that happen to you when you with me.
maybe you tired of anything about me since i make peoples lost their energy .
ehehehehe.
and thanks for anything.
but i think i should let you go.
let my feeling to you go.
let this memories go to the my archive's box.
i keep that on the box.
one day, i will open it when my feeling accept and choose to open it.
but ya,
it takes a long.
i should be prepared for anything who happen it tomorrow.
and tried to stop everything of you.
i wish i can.
but i don't want to force myself too hard.
i can handle it but not now.
but i keep thinking about make it a books.
i wish you will see that i can forget about you easily :)
february 17'2020
Regina Alifa Sihombing.
