A long time ago,
I never speak up like this.
Since I know it will be over like this.
But this is my untold story who no anyone know this.
Actually, it's hurt me when I'm trying to speak up something useless like this.
But I wonder how people thinking about me,
Bad or good.
I preferred to be a bad person than the good one, since I know.
I'll lose in the game name personality.
It's almost 3 year till now.
Actually it hit me so bad since I never crying that bad causes bunch of people.
But for the first time, it hit me so badly.
I'm older than them.
Being adults is hard for me.
Since I'm the point of them, I just become "people pleasure "who protect my friend from everything and always say yes when they ask.
I don't know how can I became stupid like that.
I just hold my heart till now without speak anything of them.
I think my patience for them is enough.
That's why I'm speak up.
Lemme I ask u something before I continue this story,
"Have you ever feel loneliness when u with bunch of your friends? "
"Have you feel stupid when you with them? "
"Have you ever hold your heart and not talking anything to make them mad? "
"Have you being bullied by them since u are the most people not talking? "
If u feel that way, please told me what will you do.
Do not become silent like me.
I was born to be like this way.
I never hesitate myself born like this,
But maybe one day people will tired of me.
That's still on going in my mind counts today.
