Steven Universe x reader

Pain (Part 9)

Warning! This scene contains self harm that might trigger you! Scroll down to the checkpoint if your not comfortable with it!

(Y/N) POV:

A few days past since I got my own room, each day I was feeling more lonely at night. I would always remember about the times I was always alone in that cage. I sat alone in my room trying to think of something, anything. The loneliness was getting to me, I tried to calm my emotions down by listening to music. "So stay by my side, from now until the end although, I know that there's really no one left," I sang quietly and hummed along. I tried to contain my emotions but the music only helped for a bit. I bursted into tears, all of my tears landed on my pillow making it soaked.

My tears and thoughts felt like they were never going to stop. I felt the pain coming in my gut. There's only one way to take away my pain... I need it to stop. I got up and put on a house coat just in case someone was awake and nearby. I snuck my way into the bathroom trying to be quiet, I closed the door behind me and scavenged the room for anything to use.

I found some scissors that looked sharp enough, then I proceeded to take off my house coat. I stared down at all my old scars in disappointment that I was starting to do it again after all this time of trying not to. I rested the sharp part of the scissors on my arm. I breathed in and out. 1, 2,3- I quickly pulled the scissors and made a big scrap that started to gush blood. I screamed from the sudden pain of pulling it too hard.

I heard a voice from someone that sounded like they were getting really close to the bathroom, "(Y/N)! Are you okay?" Steven said in concern, in fact he was so concerned busted through the door. I backed away trying to cover my arm, I fell on the floor and tried to hold myself up but my arm didn't have enough strength from the cut that was bleeding heavily.

Steven immediately looked at all my previous scars, then he looked to see the big one that was covered in blood, the floor was also covered in blood. Steven ran over to me without a second thought while I continued to cry not just in pain, but in fear. He gently placed a kiss on my cut, which healed It. Steven put his hands around me and hugged me, I hugged back and my hands tugged gently on his shirt.

~ Check point ~

"(Y/N) don't ever do that! You should value yourself more. I know you might not always feel like people value you, but I do! Whatever you're going through I want to help!" Steven said seriously while not breaking the hug. "Thank you Steven, that's what I needed to hear. I've been feeling lonely since I got a room."

I thanked him and confessed to him. "You can sleep in my bed whenever you want if you're feeling lonely, you don't have to resort to this," Steven said while giving me hope. We both went to Steven's room and I went to my usual spot on his bed. I started to feel tension building up, I wanted to be closer to Steven.

"Steven... it's pretty cold in here," I said to make an excuse as I scooted closer. I started to feel more nervous the closer I got. Then I noticed Steven was asleep already. I got more confident knowing Steven wasn't awake to watch me awkwardly scoot closer. Once I was beside him I felt an urge to lay on his chest, I set my head down gently and fell asleep.

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