Blacked Out (Completed) Book 1

Bitch Fight

Almost an hour passed by since Noah dropped me off. I stood there in the rain, soaked wet and my left hand in the knocking position. For the last 60 minutes, I was scared of knocking. I was anxious about what was coming next to my bad side. In those 3600 seconds, I heard whispers in my head from myself this time, not from Black Poison. The voice filled up my mind and I felt like a wreck. I couldn't even handle the easiest thing like a knock on a door. At least I got a push from somewhere deep inside me and wanted to knock until Danny unlocked the door. I knocked on his chest instead of the door...

"Honey... Who's at the door?", a female voice called behind him.

He shut his eyes immediately as if he would regret what just happened. What I felt was the pain.

My heart got stabbed from behind and shattered into a million pieces. I curled my hand into fists and pressed my teeth together. I hated myself for trusting to fast. Even though I had a memory loss, I still had a feeling that something felt wrong. Now that I remember near to everything my guts had the right feelings. At this moment, I got betrayed and heartbroken for the second time and I will never forgive this to myself.

Both of us didn't notice that I started crying because of the rain. I turned away from him and walked away. Again.

"Nancy, please stay! I can explain.", he shouted through the rain.

I was already angry at myself and it made me even angrier that I ranted.

"Fuck off Detective! Who is that bitch? I asked you one thing to leave me alone for a moment and I didn't mean you to fuck one of your hoes.", I yelled at him as I walked back.

I stopped in front of him and pointed a finger at him. My mouth was open but I was speechless. It hurt me too much. He grabbed my arm but I pulled it back to me so he let go.

Even though I wanted to get touched, I rather wanted to be left untouched. The touch just didn't feel right anymore. I felt betrayed and most of all disappointed.

"Baby, honey. Who's that bitch that called me a hoe. Don't you want to stand for your fiancé?", a blonde woman asked and held his arm then went down to his hands.

My heart stopped beating and I forgot to breathe. I knew that after a proposal a couple will always get back together whatever it comes. I got jealous as I saw her intertwine their fingers. Tears still dropped down my cheeks. It was enough for me, I was tired of discussing and turned once again around.

"For god's sake Sydney. It's over since you got in bed with Noah.", he said and pushed her away before he came running over to me. "Nancy. Please listen to me... She got here for no reason. I just wanted to throw her out but then you stood there. Please forgive me and give us a chance. I swear I give some space."

My body heated up, I trembled in my whole body. I was boiling full of anger. I didn't push him once nor twice. No, I pushed and hit him in the chest for almost ten times and told him to fuck off. His ex-fiancé didn't like my acting at all and pulled him away.

With her head high she said: "You have to get through me first if you want to hurt me."

I snorted and held both of my middle fingers in the sky. I felt my stomach twitching, I was unsure if it was of my anger or if Black Poison wanted to take advantage. Insecure I turned around and left them behind but she just couldn't shut her mouth. Immediately I stopped and the breath I held in, came out of my nose hard. I closed my eyes and tried to calm myself down and thank god my best friend rescued me.

"Hello, you must be Sydney, am I right?", she questioned and I could hear it in her voice that she had something in mind.

Unfortunately, busy with myself, I got concerned with the situation. Even though I knew now only my anger wanted to burst out and not the villain in me. It's just a matter of time when she gets back the control over me. I don't want her to ruin my life more than it already is. I really have another problem to deal with.