Destiny

Chapter Thirteen

Self pity is ridiculous, quite agonizing at some point. You feel so strong then all of a sudden you feel pity for yourself because you aren’t strong to face something, you are afraid and maybe it’s just all in the mind, an imagination to be exact.

I for example, was a very stupid human being at my age, running like a bloody coward you can or a one person can be. But the thing is, I was done at times of being like that, I’ve decided that I should take a big step towards a better me, a better person I can and shall be. With all the problems I have faced and will still face, I stand by a decision that I, Katelyn Martinez shall remain strong and indeed very careful in every step I will take from now on.

Now, at the very moment I am thinking in deep thought, lay on the hospital bed which was surprisingly soft and smooth at the touch at my skin. I was still in deep thought when; a very hypnotizing, deep and low yet quite caring in tone of voice abruptly disturbed and snapped me out of my very deep thought.

“Kate.” The voice said to me and I nearly recognized it as soon as I heard the voice. It was Kurt’s, and I was sure of that, he besides my dad called me that way, creepy I say but touching though.

“God Kurt, are you always in the bad timing?” I told him slightly annoyed at his presence which was in fact true because he just snapped me out of my thought.

“At least not now.” He said to me as he chuckled in amusement. I just stared at him, when the circles under his eyes caught my attention, it was curious he never had eye bags before not when I got in comatose before, a way years ago.

“You look awful.” I commented at him when he stopped chuckling.

“I supposed that’s not a compliment right?” He asked as he flashes an amused smile on his face. I didn’t return his smile and he got the message that I am still waiting for a better response from him.

“Well, I feel awful too, think that match why I look awful.” Kurt said his head down and his gaze fell on the floor.

“Why?” The words slipped of my mouth without thinking and all I can do was just cover my mouth with my hands. He now then looks to me and smirked, a reaction in a sign saying he was enjoying what is happening.

“Why do you want to know?” Kurt retorted back but still amused with my reactions.

“Well, as you know, a week ago, I just said to you that I still love you and so that means I care.” I told absent mindedly to him and his smile grew even wider that I doubt his face will wrack off because of his smile.

“Oh you do?” He teased me and I can’t help but smile a bit to him and that’s all! A small smile.

“You’re not denying it, so does that means, you still really do love me huh?” He asked one more time to me and I have no choice but to tell him the truth, a truth I could have kept forever away from him.

“Do I have a choice? You know me too well even when I’m lying.” I told to him as a matter of fact, which was indeed very true, there’s no point of lying when he knew me very well and sometimes it’s kind of bad.

“Good point there. But the bad thing is I knew you very well while you, denies at some fact I expresses.” He said with a sad smile, which made me confuse, what is he talking about? I don’t get it, I can’t get it.

“What are you trying to say? You know, I don’t get it. I don’t understand any of this.” I confessed to him and his just show off his gentle smile.

“In the right time Kate, maybe when got out in here or maybe when you come at my wedding day, so please come, will you?” He told me this and I reluctantly nodded to his favor. I am still confused but nevertheless kept it that way.