yungblud oneshots

20- "i've lost one of the most important things to me":

flashback:

"Will you marry me?" Y/n's hands cupped her mouth, tears falling from her eyes like water fountains. She nodded frantically, pulling me up to hug her.

-

"I do." Dominic held my face, pressing his lips to mine. The kiss was sweet and slow, my eyes fluttered closed. Finally, Mr and Mrs Harrison.

-

"I'm pregnant, Dominic. We're having a baby!" My eyes widened, taking the test from y/n. I looked over the stick, it read 'pregnant' in bold writing. I rubbed the threatening tears away, holding y/n close.

-

"Congratulation, it's a girl." The doctor handed me the most precious thing in the world. My baby girl. Dominic pulled the chair up beside the bed, gently running his hand over her head. I kissed the tip of her nose. That's my child, the child I've had with my husband.

-

"Dom, we need to get her to hospital, she won't stop crying! There's something wrong..." Y/n was sobbing, Emma doing the same in her arms. We left the hospital 2 weeks ago, surely this isn't normal...

-

"I'm so sorry to tell you this, Mr and Mrs Harrison. She's not gonna make it past 6 weeks old... We've found a terrifyingly high amount of bilirubin effecting her liver... However, we could help her, but we don't have much time." My heart dropped to my feet. I can't lose Emma... Dominic squeezed my hand, reassuring me that it would be alright.

-

"There's no way we can lose ya now, mummy and daddy need their little princess..." Emma wasn't moving around much, she just laid on her back in the royal pink bassinet, occasionally blinking and wiggling her little fingers. Y/n turned around and left the room in a hurry, I followed after her. She sat on the chair outside of the room Emma was being treated in. I knelt down to her side, giving her the 'what's wrong?' look. She blinked her tears away and whispered: 'I'm not being in there when she dies...' Doctors suddenly rushed into the room beside us. Shit.

-

"That should be me in that coffin, not her. Fookin' hell, I can't breathe." Dom's hand was on his chest, rapidly rising and falling. I sat him down on the pew in the front row of the crematorium, trying to calm him from his panic attack. We decided to have Emma cremated, so we could keep her ashes for a little while. I rubbed Dominic's back, Michael and Adam sat down with us. Everyone else at the funeral stayed standing, watching us silently to respect what was going on.

-

"We can always have another, babe." I placed my hand on Dom's shoulder. He shrugged it off, keeping his head hidden in his hands.

"But I don't want another! I want our baby girl... it's not the fookin' same! I don't wanna sit here and pretend that it's fine and we can have another baby... I've always wanted to have a family, I didn't expect to lose ma first child when she hadn't even said her first word. Y/n, I just want Emma back." Dominic erupted into a loud, dry sob. I pulled him close to me. Neither of us had tears anymore, when we grieved, they were just small sniffs and gasps.

"I know, love. I want her, too. But there's nothing we can do now... Emma's gone. Everything happens for a reason, I promise we can try again when you're ready. This was just an unfortunate mishap." To be completely honest, I never expected Dominic to be this emotional. I know we've just lost our first ever baby, but he's, like... breaking. He won't go to the studio because it involves leaving the house. He doesn't want to face his fans right now, even though the only thing he'll get from them is the love and support he needs. Too overwhelming for him right now.

"I'm sorry, y/n. I should man up... I-I just can't handle knowing that I won't wake up to crying in the middle of the night anymore. No more taking her from her cot, no more cradling her in my arms, no more soft singing to help her fall back to sleep. There won't be another late night bedtime story... o-or holding her to my chest as I hum and dance to the nursery rhymes I know. I want that all back, I'd give anything for her little smile and gurgling noises. I've lost one of the most important things to me..." I took a deep breath, kissing the top of Dom's head. His face was hiding in the crook on my neck, his hot breath tickling my skin.

"I'd swap places with Emma if I could, so you two could be happy. You and Colson could go out with her and his girl on a double daddy-daughter date. As she grew up, her and Casie would become closer as they see each other almost everyday. You and Baker working on new music for your fans... Emma could learn an instrument, or how to sing from the best. And that's when you'd start taking her on tour sometimes, so the fans fall in love with her, just like we did. I'd happily take her place, if it meant that I'd see you smiling again." Dom nuzzled into me.

"I love you so much."

"I love you, too."

-

I'm sorry this is set out so weird, my brain amazes me sometimes >.<