yungblud oneshots

28- attempt:

A/n: what you're about to read is how my mind has been recently. I wanted to interpret how suicide can effect somebody who has to live with the constant awareness of losing someone. If you visit the website 'suicidestop.com', you will find hotline numbers for every country, wherever you are. Remember you're worth so much, and if you need to hear it today, I love you🤍

Tw: suicide attempt
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This is it...

Today's the day I leave everything and everyone behind so I'm finally happy...

"Y/n, p-please don't do this... get away from the edge. Come back home, Dominic's worried sick. You can't do this to him. Not now, not ever." Adam shivered as the rain fell harder, soaking the bridge. I didn't turn around to look at him, staring out in front of me. The waves crashed beneath me, calling my name.

"I'm sorry, Adam. I can't do this anymore. It's too much to handle, there's no better way to fix this. If I go, everything will be better. I don't want to be here, I want to be back with my brother." I sobbed, gripping the ledge. I heard footsteps tapping towards me.

"Don't take another step, Warrington! I'll let go! I-I won't hesitate!" I shouted, glancing back to see his scared face. He stood still a few feet away from me. I wiped my face on my damp shoulder.

It's now or never. If I don't do it, I'll regret it for the rest of my miserable life.

"Think about Dominic! Think about everyone back at home who care for you! Think about the fans, how devastated with they be to find out the love of Dom's life is gone? Take a minute to think about the memories you have yet to make! There's so many new places to explore, new faces to see, people to meet. I know it's hard right now, but I need you to get back onto the safe side and come home with me! We can't lose you, y/n..." He whispered, falling to his knees. My teeth chattered as the wind picked up again, swiping wet strands of hair across my face.

"I-I can't, Adam! I don't wanna come home! It's painful to breathe now, my mind is killing itself. What's the point anymore? Why should we try to find a purpose in life when it might never come? I don't have a purpose here." I sighed, taking another look at the ocean below. A lightning bolt brightened the sky above, a crash of thunder coming straight after. Few cars drove past, nobody stopping to witness something so horrifying.

"I beg you, y/n. I'm on my knees, I don't wanna see you like this. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. If you kill yourself, the world won't turn, the sky won't be blue, the sun won't shine. Dominic won't forgive himself for this, you know he won't!" I shook my head.

"No! I'm not coming home, I'm sorry! Just go, you're wasting your time with me. I'll be gone in seconds, I promise. I love you, Adam. But, this is my final goodbye. Tell Dominic I love him with all my heart." I slowly loosened my hands on the railing, spreading my arms out beside me. I lifted my foot to take a step onto nothing below me.

Then, I felt it.

I felt a pair of arms wrap around my stomach and pull me from the drop. I screamed and thrashed about, trying to release myself from the stronger weight on top of me. I realised who it was, immediately bursting into tears. Dominic held me down, hushing me and whispering 'I'm here, love. It's okay'. I stopped moving, letting Dom lift me up and take me back to Adam's car. I was shaking from the cold, staying in Dom's lap for the whole car journey.

"Never fookin' do that again, y/n. I'm not losing you." He choked on his breath, hiding his face in my neck. I held him closer to me, apologising over and over.

"I'm sorry, Dommie. Everything is just so hard right now..." Dom lifted his head and softly pressed his lips to mine.

"Just promise me you'll never do it again, I ain't ready for you to leave me. I'll never be fookin' ready for it." He whimpered, squeezing me tightly. My life flashed before my eyes, remembering the best times I've had. Meeting Dominic for the first time, falling in love with him, being introduced to so many people who I never knew existed.

"I love you, Dom."

"I love you, too, y/n."

That's why I'm alive. I'm here for a reason, even if that reason is to make Dom happy, or to remind somebody that they're amazing. The purpose of life is to spread love for someone who may need it. I feel alone, but I know I'm not the only one.

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So... please don't ever feel ashamed to call or message someone when you're feeling like this. I'm always open to talk when you feel misunderstood by your family or friends. I'll admit that I've attempted suicide one too many times, it's not worth it, I promise you🤍

'Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.'