last year i was always crying in public and making drama out of nothing. i would crave attention and pity myself. i would fuck up relationships because i couldn't trust anyone and my only line of defense was cutting them off before they could cut me off
this year, i stay back and don't cause drama. this year i cry only when i'm alone and the whole house is asleep. this year i keep my problems to myself because no one really cares about other people's problems right? but i do. so i listen to people and give the best advice i can and i hold people when they're sad and tell them to breathe deeply when they're mad. instead of throwing up my emotions onto other people, i use them to help coach people so they don't feel the way i do. i joke and i keep it light and fun even though i'm in so much pain and i'm scared. the thing is, the only thing that brings me any type of happiness is seeing others so happy with their lives
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your average teenager
Poesiatw// suicide, self harm, depression cw// food stuff to read when you feel your life exploding from the inside out💙 ©️caiitymay
