A taste of 20's (COMPLETED)

Chapter 11

Tahimik ang huling linggo ko sa trabaho, handa na ang lahat pati ang opisina ni Mrs. Velasquez at calyx. Speaking of, I've never seen him in the university for a week the last time I saw him when Mrs. Velasquez invited me a lunch with them and hindi ako makatanggi dahil personal akong inimbita and then after that hindi ko na ito nakita ulit.

As I've heard from the other student he's been with Thamarie for a week, both of them seen dating last two days. I'm happy to them, that finally Calyx diverted his attention to much better woman but I can't deny naman na nasasaktan ako pero kailangan ko iinda para sa amin din naman lahat ng pagpipigil.

Mas lagi kaming magkasama ni Isiah ngayon at wala naman akong reklamo. I'm trying to divert my feelings towards Isiah because he deserved to be loved pero kahit anong gawin ko sa lagi naming magkasama wala talaga akong maramdaman na tulad nang nararamdaman ko kang Calyx.

I massaged my neck after I put the vase in the mini table, then roam my eyes around at the place. So clean, refreshing dahil sa mga green na in-add ko for refreshment sa mata. Finally, my first project is done, I visit the library kanina and it ready na for Wednesday launch.

Sinakbit ko na ang bag sa balikat at lumabas ng kwarto. Bumaba na ako at dumeretso sa opisina to informed Mrs. Velasquez, kumatok muna ako bago pumasok at halos matamimi sa nadatnan.

Calyx and I meet our gazed while Thamarie's on top of him "I'm sorry" hinging tawad ko at kaagad tumalikod

"Stay, mom want me to give this to you" he said, huminga muna ako ng malalim bago humarap ulit sa kanila.

Thamarie's now looking at me with a smile ni hindi ko man lang ito nakitaan nang hiya sa naabutan ko kanina. Napalipat naman ang tingin ko kang Calyx na palapit sa 'kin.

"Here" sabay abot nang brown na invitation, Hindi ko masyadong napansin ang hawak nito pero mas napansin ko ang distansya nito sa akin at lamig nang pakikitungo sa akin ni Calyx.

"Thank you"

Hinuhuli ko ang kanyang tingin, trying to read his emotion, trying to know what he's feeling pero wala akong makita kundi blangko

"You need anything? mom told me before she left na this will be your last day. I think you should go baka may lakad ka pa" he turn his back and sit next to Tham.

Inikot naman ni Tham ang kanyang kamay sa braso ni Calyx habang dikit na dikit ang dibdib nito sa balikat ni Calyx. I can felt the pain of sting and a tension in my palm. I decided to leave the room with a heavy feeling, there's an urge na bumalik sa loob pero para saan? gagawin ko lang Tanga ang sarili and ginusto ko naman lahat ng ito.

I should be celebrating this damn victory of letting calyx divert his feelings to Thamarie. I tossed my bags sa upuan pagkapasok sa loob ng car, I grip the steering wheel hard and madiin na pinikit ang mata.

I frowned and grip the steering wheel so hard dahil sa muling pagkirot ng aking ulo "This isn't right anymore" nakakaramdam na ako ng kaba dahil sa sunod-sunod na kirot sa aking ulo.

Ilang beses pa akong huminga bago umalis, when I got home nag stay lang ako sa kwarto and inopen ang invitation for the launch this Wednesday. I put the invitation in the bed side table and hug my pillow as I remember calyx with Thamarie earlier. Sumasakit lang ang ulo ko kakapilit sa sarili na kalimutan ang nadatnan but I can't dictate my own mind and heart, it's distracting, painful distraction indeed.