Today was a sad day for everyone. I felt down all day but felt a bit better as I was on the court. Instead of putting myself through the emotional stress of watching Kobe's memorial, I spent that time on the court honoring him. I made the difficult decision to contact my psychiatrist because I know something is wrong with me and that I'm not okay. Last night I had another severe anxiety attack because I wanted to be held. That's not normal. It has something to do with my DSED and it was a difficult decision to make but Kobe helped me make it. Just like when I made the decision to drop Jewelry class, I felt him there. I felt his large hand on my back keeping me calm. I may have disabilities, I may never be loved romantically, I may take a ton of medications already but I will live on to live Gianna's legacy. To carry her number and not just hers but my best friend's late boyfriend and his late friend. I will. Until my dying breath
Today is 2/24. 2 being Gianna's jersey number and 24 being Kobe's. Today to me forevermore shall be known as Kobe and Gianna Bryant Day.
