Things have changed a lot since my last update. I rediscovered a passion for gaming and now have almost 1K followers on Twitch, rediscovered my love of roller skating, got my heart broken by a cute Serbian gamer guy who looks like Nikola Jokić, and fell in love with a Croatian gamer boy (No it's not Mario Hezonja I'm not THAT lucky)
Tonight I felt Kobe's presence for the first time since February. Today the Lakers brought home the playoffs and I felt Kobe's presence there. I know he gm was there watching over each and every player on the court. He gave the Lakers his courage that they needed to fight on and win the championships.
Earlier I felt his presence and at first felt a wave of disappointment go through me because I knew he would be disappointed in me for losing hope. For losing faith in myself. For laying around sad like a fat lazy pig for 3 months. He wasn't disappointed in me, but he saw how much I've been struggling and is just proud of me for surviving. I will push forward and live through this pandemic. I promise, Kobe. I promise.
