9th member; of Stray Kids

Black

Is this it? Should I just forget about everything? Will they ever forgive me? I don't know, I'm not the one to blame after all. Or am I? 

Its really dark, everything is really dark now. I don't even feel like doing anything anymore. They shouldn't be blaming me, its not my fault- Yes it is my fault. 

I don't know how to feel, after we thought that everything is going to be okay, I ruined everything. I ruined our happy ending. 

I can fix this, I really can- No I can't. Its really over. Maybe they will hate me forever, maybe they will forget about everything. 

How can they forget, no one can forget. I will bring back everything, I will sort everything out, maybe then they will- I can't. 

They warned me, they told me that this will never end well, but do I even listen to anyone? Am I happy now? Of course not, but isn't this what I wanted? No. 

I didn't want it this way, I'm selfish I know, but maybe I was waiting for something different to happen this time. I knew that nothing was going to happen, but- 

I miss how everything used to be, I miss how we used not to care about anything. 

Everything is different now, nothing is right.