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Chapter 28: Alone

GiGi was on the floor playing with her toys and Sophie was sitting next to me, on the couch, watching the news.  I was pretending to be interested in the TV, but I was really just lost in my thoughts.

It had been a couple days since Arthur left me at the hospital. He said he was going home to take a look at the letter his mother wanted him to mail off and he would be back at the hospital later, but he never came back. I waited for him for hours. When I got sick of waiting, I called Sophie to see if she could check his apartment and see if he was there. When she checked his apartment, there was no sign of him and the apartment was completely wrecked.

Did he get angry and smash up the apartment in a rage? Did the GCPD find out he was the murder and arrested him? No, surely that would be all over the news if that was the case. What if one of the killer clown followers somehow found out that he was the killer and they kidnapped him? Honestly, I had no idea and I couldn't keep my thoughts from going wild. The only thing I did know: I was worried about Arthur and I just wanted him back home.

I constantly checked the apartment, but I never saw him. I listened for noises in the hallway, but they were never Arthur. I wanted to go out and look for him, but my anxiety wouldn't let me. Sophie was nice enough to go by Ha Ha's and Pogo's one day for me to see if anyone had seen Arthur, but no one had.

I was so lost and confused. I honestly didn't want it to be true that something bad happened to him, but I couldn't help thinking what that meant if something bad didn't happen to him. Did he choose to leave and never come back? Did he choose to leave me? If so, why? Yes, the news about Thomas Wayne being his father was surprising and upsetting, but that shouldn't have made him choose to leave me. Why would he leave me?  I wanted to cry, but I had already cried so much, I didn't have any tears left.  I felt so utterly broken and hopeless.

And to top things off, I missed a counseling appointment, a drug test, and a meeting with my probation officer. I already had to hide when my probation officer came by Sophie's apartment yesterday to see if I was here. She was able to get him to leave, but it wouldn't be too much longer before he would get a warrant to search the apartment if I didn't show up soon. I would have to do something. I guess I would have to start staying at Arthur's apartment, even though being in that apartment alone was emotional toil for me.

Then, almost as if someone were reading my thoughts, there was a knock at the door.  For a second, a jerked up to run to the door. What if it was Arthur?  But then I forced my body to stop. What if it was my probation officer?

I turned and looked at Sophie, "I'm going to hide. Just in case."  I ran off to the bathroom before she could even respond.

My mind raced and I waited to see what might happen next. Surely my probation officer didn't already get a warrant.  I placed my ear directly on the closed, bathroom door, attempting to pick up any noises or words that I could, but it was pointless. The only thing I could slightly make out was the high pitched shrills of GiGi playing with her toys.

I jumped when I heard a knock on the bathroom door, "Anon, Martha Wayne is outside. She wants to speak with you."

My eyes widened with surprise. Martha Wayne here? Now? What did she want?  Was she finally attempting to check on me and see why I never came back to work?  But after all this time?  Why now?

I moved over so that I was standing in front of the bathroom mirror and attempted to make myself look somewhat presentable, but it was pretty much hopeless. My blonde hair was frizzy and a little matted in some places, I had dark circles under my eyes from lack of restful sleep, and I was wearing a big oversized black shirt with gym shorts that could barely be seen because of how long the shirt was on me. I hadn't really been taking care of myself like I should because I was too depressed about Arthur being gone.