𝐁𝐋𝐔𝐑𝐑𝐄𝐃

13: tease

Elle's PoV

Nervously I took my painkillers and other pills to calm my anxiety down since ever since Ethan broke up with me, I feel like the biggest shit on earth. He didn't call me once, not even a text appeared on my phone.

I texted him, I called him and got ignored.

I felt like shit anyway and him treating me like that made everything worse to the point where I questioned my self-esteem.

I've spent three days at the hotel already and didn't appear to work. Justin tried contacting me privately and through work but I should especially avoid him for now. Which wasn't that much of a success since I'm basically panicking because of him right now. Sitting in my car, shaking like I'm about to have another attack because today I had to act like I'm perfectly fine and work at his company.

The project I've planned for Somalia came really close and I would fly there in a week with a few of Justin's employees.

"Go in, do the conference and leave immediately." Trying to keep myself going but my body wasn't agreeing.

My heart is shattered, I felt so alone with my dark thoughts and needed someone to distract me without knowing what I'm going through.

Breathing deeply in as I stepped out of my car, thinking of what Ethan's plan is now. He broke up, taking a break from marriage is breaking up for me. Is that a divorce? Should I expect something from his lawyer soon? Does he want me to apologize? I would if he wouldn't ignore my calls.

I never got rejected by him, it shouldn't be that time to start now since I was honest with him all the time. Never did I lie to his face, never did I deny what happened between that accident kiss of Justin and I.

"Good Morning, Mrs. Matthews," Justin's secretary greets me and I just nod at him nervously and walk towards the conference room. As I came closer to Justin's office, my legs shake terribly and the sound of my heels clicking against the floor made me so nervous. Everyone could hear me being anxious by the way I walk and my heels sound through the floor.

Please, don't come out now. Please, don't let him open the door now, please-

He stepped out of his office.

And my jaw could fall down to the floor because of how he's looking right now.

He had stubbles all around his chin and jaw, his hair with a new fresh cut. The top was longer and slid back while his sides were cut short. I notice his suit was grey this time, he never wore grey. It matched his eye color.

"Oh good morning, Mrs.Matthews," He innocently smiles at me and now I wish to slam my head against the wall.

I made him call me like this at the wrong time.

"Morning," was all my lips could leave as he pauses in front of me. At least I thought he was but not even two seconds later he kept walking, not giving me any attention.

I wanted it this way, I shouldn't be hurt now.

Shaking some sense back to me, I walk inside the conference room and my breath stocks when my eyes catch Ethan. He looked at me for a second and then next to him. My body was standing lost at the same place and I look around to make sure nobody is seeing how terribly I'm doing. Walking towards a seat far away from Ethan and Justin, noticing Justin's suspicious look at me which turned to a smirk.

Is he making fun of me? Did he notice I'm on bad terms with Ethan? I mean he knows but now Ethan and I am in the same room and Justin can put one and one together?

"Elle, you can start whenever you feel like," Justin interrupts our small circle and everyone looked at me, except Ethan. Justin looked at Ethan to see how he's behaving, smiling to himself when Ethan just minded his own business.