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HER REAL HAPPINESS

( Written: May 05, 2020 )

Nakatayo ako sa likuran niya and he's standing while both hands were inside his pockets. I can't help but to stare at his back, wondering why were here.

"Luxe?"I called him.

Nilingon niya ako at tinitigan.

"Why? Bakit tayo nandito?"

He gave me a half-smile na dahilan para hndi ko mapigilang isiping bakit ganun siya ngumiti? Bakit niya ako bibigyan ng ganoong klase ng ngiti.

He then looked away from my sight. While looking at his side face I saw that he mouthed my name.

"May problema ba?"lumakad ako papunta sa harapan niya. His eyes were drifted to my face, down to my lips.

"Love..."

"Luxe, tell me is there something wrong?"nag aalala kong tanong sa kanya.

He  look straight to my eyes. Malamang nakikita niya ang magkahalong emosiyon na namumutawi sa mga mata ko.

"This is the place, r-right?"tanong niya na ikinagulat ko.

"What do you mean?"

"This is the place, right Yesa?"

Pumikit ako  saka yumuko.

"Right!"iniangat niya ang baba ko. "You and him were secretly seeing each other here,right?"

Paulit-ulit akong umiling bago sagutin ang tanong niya. "I'm sorry!"

"Stop it! It's alright. Alam kong siya pa rin naman, Yesa."he said as he fake his smile.

"Sorry... But believe me I did love you,---"

"But not enough for you to forget him."ibinaba niya ang kanyang mga kamay at muling ipinasok sa kanyanh bulsa.

I stopped right after he said those words.

"Let's just end this."he then slowly walk away from me.

"Luxe, please!"

"Yesa, we need to end this for you to find your happiness. Your real happiness. Wag ka ma muna....Wag mo na muna akong mahalin hangga't hindi mo pa siya tapos mahalin."

Pagkatapos niyang sabihin ang mga salitang iyon naiwan akong mag isa. Nakatulala habang patuloy sa pagbagsak ang mga luha galing sa aking mga mata.

'I'm sorry, Luxe! I'm very sorry!'

"Yesa!"

"Lash!"halos pumiyok ako nang tawagin ko ang pangalan niya. Nag aalala ang mga mata niyang nakatingin sa akin. He hurridly run towards me and gave me a hug. "Luxe ended up our relationship, Lash. He knew that I was secretly seeing you. Lash, I don't know what to do. I do love you both, but I don't know what should I do. I don't know what to do!"iyak ko habang yakap yakap niya.

"Hush! Everything will be fine. I'm here. He left you pero ako, I would never leave you."

* * * * *

Months had past Lash and I's relationship didn't work out that long.

"Yesa, let's end this!"

"What? May problema ba?"seems like I'm having a de javu.

" You're not happy with me, Yesa. Hindi naman talaga ako yung mahal mo diba? Si Luxe yun."

"Lash, i love you. Ano bang pinagsasabi mo?"

"Not the way  how you love Luxe! Hindi ko na makita yung saya sa mga mata mo kapag ako ang kasama mo. Maybe your eyes were paying attention onto me, but your heart does not. You and your heart were still looking for someone to comeback!"

"Lash, don't do this. Sinabi mo hindi mo ako iiwan, diba?"i tried to hold his hand pero umiwas siya.

"Pero hindi ka na nga sa akin masaya!"namuo ang luha sa mga mata niya. "Hindi ko na gugustuhin pang ipagpatuloy 'tong relasyon nating dalawa ng hindi naman na kita kayang mapasaya."I tried to hold it in, but I cried my eyes out. Kasabay ng pagpatak ng luha ko'y pag patak din ng sa kanya.

"I'm sorry, Lush! I thought magiging masaya na ako kapag nag end ang relationship namin ni Luxe para makasama ka pero maniwala ka, Lush, I tried. I tried na maging masaya with you para maging fair ako sayo...sa relationship natin. But I just realize na hindi ko na kayang ibalik yung saya kapag kasama kita nang tulad ng dati. Sorry! Sorry! Ang gulo gulo na ng isip ko. Hindi ko na alam kung ano pa bang tama sa ginagawa ko. I'm sorry!"

Without saying anything yinakap niya nalang ako nang sobrang higpit. Yung parang ayaw niya pa akong pakawalan pero kailangan.

"You are now free, Yesa. Before loving someone else, please find first those missing piece of your life. Gawin mo kung ano sa palagay mo kung ano ang tama. Find the thing that would make you really happy. Find your real happiness. Do it for yourself not for the sake of others. Not for me and also not for Luxe."he then kiss my forehead, for the last time before he say,

"I love you, Yesa. Goodbye!"and left me like what Luxe did.

That thing happened a long time ago. Lush, Luxe, and I are now happy. Para sa kasiyahan ko, Luxe chose to gave me up para maging masaya kasam si Lush. Lush did the samething. They both left me para hanapin ang totoong kasiyahan ko. Nang iwan ako ni Lush I decided na magpakalayo layo muna at sinubukang gawin yung sinabi ni Lush. Hindi naman ako nagsisi na sinubukan kong gawin kung anong tama.

Nang bumalik ako akala ko may babalikan pa ako, pero akala ko lang pala. I just heard na umalis na ng bansa si Lush kasama ng future family niya, and Luxe, he looks so happy nang makita ko siya. Masaya with the girl he deserves. Aaminin ko mahal ko pa si Luxe non, but I have no choice but to accept na iba na ang mahal niya. Na hindi na ako yung babaeng magpapasaya sa kanya. By that time, I cried again not for being a hopeless but because I am so happy. I'm happy for both of them. I realize na ang totoo ko palang kasiyahan ay ang makitang masaya ang mga taong minsan ko nang sinaktan.

I really have to accept na may mga tao ngang pinagtatagpo pero hindi naman nakatadhana para sa kanila.

There comes a point in our life when we realize who matters, who never did, who won't anymore and who will always.

So don't worry about people from our past, there's a reason why they didn't make it to our future.