Is this love?

Pizza

Tae POV

Group chat

Bangtan Sonyeondan

Rose❤: Hey! Wanna hangout this weekend at my house?

Hobi🐴: Sorry. Can't make it this time. Yoongi failed in physics last time so we are studying 😭.

Yoongs❤: Yeah sure I am in.

Yoongs❤: Wait what? When did we plan this?

Hobi🐴: You don't have a choice. I am not letting you fail.

Yoongs❤: Ok fine 🙄. I am too lazy to get out of the house anyway.

Chimchim❤: Seriously? If u ppl are not coming I don't wanna go either🥺🙁.

Kookie🍪: Yeah me too. My aunt is visiting this weekend anyway.

Porcupine❤: If y'all are not coming there's no point in me going 🤷‍♀.

Rose❤: Guys... I am going to order pizza.

Tae bear🐻:I am in.

Kookie🍪: Me too.

Chimchim❤: Me too I guess.

Porcupine❤: Wow ok. I am in.

Rose❤: Cool. See y'all this weekend.

Porcupine❤: Who tf changed the groups name to Bangtan Sonyeondan?

Tae bear🐻: Lol

Kookie🍪: dude🙄.

Rose❤ changed this group chat name to: Family❤

Kookie🍪: Much better.

Rose❤: BTW. We r meeting for lunch so come at like 12:30. Cuz i know if I say 1:00 y'all will show up late. So yeah.

Tae bear🐻: Ok dude. Anything for pizza.

End group chat

I replied and quickly put my phone away.

"Eomma. This weekend Rose invited us. Everyone else is going too except Yoongi and Hobi hyung."

"Okay but if u are gonna eat out don't go to the place we went last time. They took so long to get the food." Eomma said.

I looked at appa for approval. He just nodded curtly and continued reading the paper.

It was all messed up... It has been more than six months since they talked with each other.... and something was missing. My hyung. He went abroad to study and he can only visit once in six months or so for a few days at most.

We were really close. We stayed up till late at night talking about random science things. He was a nerd but the way he put things made me really excited. I just really miss him. I suddenly felt... Empty... I wanted to cry... No I can't do that in front of my parents. They are already going through shit. I walked out of my house and into the elevator. Kookie. I thought as I pressed his floor and the lift took me up. The doors opened and I walked out and rang his bell.

Kookie POV

I opened the door still scrolling through my phone to see Tae... It was quite normal for him to show up unannounced by now to hang out so I let him in and closed the door after him not leaving my phone. We walked to my room and I shut the door.

That's when I noticed something wrong... He usually just collapsed on the bed or rolls around... This time he sat on the edge playing with his fingers looking down.

"Dude are you okay?" I asked. He was deep in thought and didn't respond so I put my hand on his shoulder. What's wrong with him? Did he get pregnant? No what the fuck that's not possible besides Jimin wouldn't have done that... Oh my god my fucking brain...

He flinched when he felt my hand and looked up at me and that's when I saw his eyes... I don't know why but it scared me. I never saw him like this. His eyes looked like his life itself was a burden and when I looked back at his face I noticed a tear roll down his cheek.

He seemed to notice too and quickly hid his face in his hands. I didn't know what to do... I heard periodical muffled sobs. I got up and gave him some tissues... He accepted them. I placed my hand on his back and he paused looking up at me. I pulled his hands away from his face fully and pulled him close before he could protest and hugged him.

He stayed there for a while sobbing. Once he settled down he told me everything. I listened in silence as he poured his heart out. After that it was silent for a while.

"Don't tell anyone else... Please." He said looking up at me. He was still gloomy but I no longer saw those painful eyes.

I smiled at him and nodded.

That's when my phone rang. It was porcupi- I mean Jisoo. I picked up and put it on speaker.

"I am bored. I don't wanna study for the test. Talk to me." She said.

"Well you are lucky. Tae is here as well." I said.

"Hi porci." Tae said. He has been calling her that for a while now.

"hI PabO." She said.

Tae smiled. I smiled too. He will be fine.

Tae POV

I can't believe I cried in front of him. I wish I could control myself but this happens everytime I think about how happy we were back in the day. But my parents. They constantly fight. They give me a lot of freedom and never refused me a single thing but they could never see eye to eye on anything.

They were just too different.. Not the kind that made a cute couple complementing each other the kind where it feels like you live in the house with two teenagers who have bad mood swings except they are adults so they won't take you seriously when you try to resolve their fights.

Now I understand why I felt so confused and almost like I had two minds. It's because I think like both my parents who always have polar opposite opinions

That's why the half of me that thinks like my mother and the half that thinks like my father are constantly at war arguing with each other and tearing me down from the inside making me indecisive.

My father was very stubborn... I got that from him I guess. He never compromised. I don't know how they thought their relationship would work back when they met.

Six months back they fought over me. My mom said that I was fine as I was and that my dad was overreacting and my dad argued that I am getting super indisciplined because of her parenting. One thing led to another and they blamed each other saying that they never wanted to be together in the first place and only married because the other hurried them.

They haven't talked since then and it's my fault....My eomma is always there for me and even appa but it has been a while since I felt that 'family' bond. Don't get me wrong. I love them more than anything but when my friends talk about their families it makes me wonder... How beautiful is it to have a functional family.

Speaking of family I don't know if it's normal but I feel a strong bond with my friends Kookie, Chimchim, Jisoo and Rose.... Yoongi and Hobi are nice but I don't know them much yet. They are closer to each other... I guess it's fine. I may not have a perfect environment at home but I always have my friends to rely on and I know they won't leave me...

I understand if you people wanna kill me. I haven't updated for so long. I just was having writers block ig. I mean ik where this story is going. I just don't know how to get it there fully yet. Anyway this corona shit is getting on my nerves. How are you all?