Is this love?

I don't wanna lose you

Kookie POV

I yelled myself hoarse pulling at the chains that kept me bound in desperation. They kept me away from him.

"NOOOOOO! TAEHYUNG NOOOO! TAKE ME INSTEAD!!" I screamed in despair as tears flowed down my cheeks.

"Hey Kookie. Look at me." Tae said with his deep voice that filled my head as I felt slightly dizzy. I looked into his eyes and they looked emotionless yet alive.

"It's okay. I need to go now. It's not your fault." He smiled at me sadly.

"I lo-" He was cut off by a man stabbing him. He didn't wince as he continued looking into my eyes. I screamed pulling at the chains again. I can't lose him. Just not him. Please.

"NOOOO! TAEHYUNG!! Please no!" I said as I violently shook trying to break free.

"How does it feel to see him die in front of your eyes when you know all you had to do was to break the chains to save him. It's your fault he is gonna die." The man said smiling at me stabbing Taehyung repeatedly as he coughed up blood still not once moving his gaze away from my eyes. Its almost as if he was getting stabbed but I was feeling it in my body. He was dying but I was gonna be the one to feel the numb void later.

He said something slowly that I couldn't hear due to the sound of my own chains so I stopped pulling at them.

"No." He whispered. "It's not his fault."

Those were his last words before his eyes closed and he collapsed forward into a pool of his own blood.

At that moment I pulled with all the strength I had left in me and the chains broke finally.

"Taehyung!" I yelled.

I ran to him turning his body over to see his face. It was deadly calm. If there wasn't so much blood one would believe he was sleeping. He looked beautiful there even with all the blood. I pulled his head onto my lap.

"Hey! Hey! Please wake up! I came Taehyung. I'll save you. You will be fine. Look at me!" I said as dread filled my heart realising at the back of my mind something I didn't want to admit.

"It's too late." A voice said as I hugged him, voicing my realisation.

I looked up to see the same man but he wasn't smiling anymore.

"And it's your fault." He said as he walked away fading off into the distance.

I held him close trying to feel his heart beat in the hope that he might still have a chance.

It was dead silent.

I woke up in a cold sweat. Taehyung! I thought as I looked around. He was nowhere to be seen and I was in my bed in my house. I hyperventilated looking around for him. Maybe I can still save him.

Once I calmed down I grabbed my phone as I pulled a hoodie on myself. I quickly pressed his contact and called him.

Tae POV

I was sleeping peacefully when my phone rang playing Immigrant by Led Zeppelin. It was Kookie.

"Kookie? It's 3am. What are you doing up so late? Are you ok?" I said my voice raspy from waking up in the middle of the night. I was gonna tell him to go back to sleep when I heard sobs on the other end.

"T-Tae! I.. Are you okay?"

"Oh my god Kook are you crying? I am coming up keep the door open I don't wanna wake your family up." I said knowing it was serious since I never heard him cry. Could it be family problems?

"N-no wait. I am already in the elevator. I am coming." He said as I worried more. The situation seems pretty bad.

"Kook are you okay? What happened?"

I only heard sobs. I opened the door just in time to see him standing outside. His eyes were red and his face was tear stained.

"What ha-" He cut me off and hugged me really tight. He was suffocating me but I didn't pull back. I wrapped my arms around him and rubbed his back soothingly as he sobbed into my chest periodically looking up to see my face as if I would disappear.

We broke apart after 2 minutes and I sneaked him into my room. Once we sat down he spoke.

"I got a dream. It felt so real. I.. I couldn't save you. You died and it was my fault." He winced as he said it, sobbing, his  expression indicating that he remembered something painful.

I moved closer and wrapped my arms around him.

"And here I thought you would be glad to get rid of me."

He punched me sobbing. "It's not funny! It felt so real. I could feel everything."

"Okay but it's not real. I am very much alive. I'm right here. You don't have to worry. I'm not going anywhere."

".... "

".... "

"Can I sleepover today?"

"Sure." I said getting out an extra pillow and blanket for him. Out of all the possible problems this was least expected. At least he doesn't have anything worse that needed to be dealt with.

We settled into my bed and he turned to me and moved closer resting his head on my chest cuddling in.

"You sure are clingy right now aren't you." I said.

"Shut up." He said pulling me closer. I placed my arm around him and played with his hair.

I smiled and closed my eyes. I wish I could do this every single day. I was always scared of commitment but with him somehow I get a lot of courage. I feel like I could fight anyone if only I could come back home to see his smile. Oh my God Taehyung do you hear your own thoughts you cheeseball. I said to myself as I brushed my thoughts away.

"Tae.." He whispered.

"Yeah?"

"You'll never leave me right?" He said.

"I promise." I said as we drifted off into sleep.

Okay double update this time. I already had this chapter written so it was easier but yeah. In like 3 more chapters or so I suppose there is going to be the timeskip.