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Chapter Fifteen

Chapter Fifteen•Gasp
lucas kingston what have you done with me?
Ariannas Pov

"TOUCHDOWN PENN STATE!" The announcer shouted as everyone stood and clapped. To be honest I had no clue who we were playing against, the only thing I was aware of was that it was a pretty close run.

"Isn't this fun!" Cierra smiled looking towards me. I admit, it was nice to hang with her but I wanted to go back to my dorm room.

Lucas played football for us, I mean it's been over a month and he's no longer on the team; but it's still so weird..so raw.

"Don't think about some dickhead who didn't deserve you. Think about the other sexy football players out there!" Cierra gasped beaming facing me. "I'm gonna get you a phone number!"

As I attempted to shake my head she hopped up from the bleachers. "Cierra no!" I shouted following her. People were looking around at us but I didn't mind them.

Once we reached the blacktop I tried holding her back but she was determined as ever. "You need to get over this dude Arianna! What better way to do it than to get under someone else?"

"Plenty other ways!" I shouted from behind her but she kept walking. I followed behind like a lap dog as she went to the opposing teams side.

As she walked faster the halftime buzzer rang. Swarms of people started walking in front of me and running into me. I had lost her.

Sighing I gave up and went back to the seats that we had. Once Cierra has her mind on something there's no giving it up.

I knew that I had to get over Lucas, and it's not that I was opposed to doing so (but I was) but I wouldn't do so by having sex with multiple other people. Toxic coping methods weren't for me.

"Arianna!"

It had to be Cierras voice from the crowd. As I turned around mid walk, I slammed straight into what felt like a wall. Before I could fall they placed their hand on my lower back holding me up.

Looking up at who was holding me I could've screamed.  There was no way, this wasn't actually happening.

Not here.

Not now.

"Lucas?"

I removed myself from his hold, standing up straight in front of him. Tears threatened to fall, they were right at the brim. Confusion rippled through my body, anger right behind it.

"Arianna." He spoke adjusting his stance.  The butterflies in my tummy were fluttering a million beats a second.  His voice.. the goosebumps on my arm shone through. My heart was beating incredibly fast..I had to be dreaming.

"Hey Luke..." A dude came up to us, resting his arm around his shoulder. "Whose this?" He nodded his head towards me and Lucas broke our gaze.

"Don't worry about it, let's go back to our seats." Lucas said nudging him off of him. The dude nodded and started to walk off. Lucas glanced to me one more time before walking off.

Why couldn't I say anything? Why wasn't anything coming out of my mouth? Why wasn't I yelling at him?

I was going to cry, right here in the middle of all these people. Than I would be an even bigger wreck. I couldn't do this to myself. Not now.

"Arianna?" Cierra exhaled reaching me finally. Her expression turned somber as she looked to me.

"What happened?"

And than I broke down.

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"So the dickhead was at the game and said nothing to you?" Alex questioned for the third time. He was driving Cierra and I to the party. I had barely said anything. There was nothing to say.

"Yeah." Cierra answered fixing her makeup in the sun visor mirror.

"Arianna..I cant imagine how you feel." Alex said looking towards me in the rear view mirror.

"I don't wanna talk about it." I sighed staring out the window.

"I get it." Alex answered as he drove on.

I had so many questions, so many things were left unspoken. I needed so many answers, and instead I stood there like a statue.

God why was I still stupid!
It's no wonder Lucas left me.

The tear brushed down my cheek, I hadn't wanted to ruin my makeup but fuck it.  Sniffling I leaned back further in my seat exhaling as Alex drove. I wanted nothing more than to go back to my dorm room, but I knew that Cierra would never forgive me.

I always put others before myself.

As we pulled up Alex tured the car off than turned to face me. "You good? You ready?" Cierra turned back too, a smile on her face. I nodded and headed out of the car.  Let's get fucked up.

i wonder who the dude with lucas was.
maybe that's why he didn't say anything to her?
how do you guys think alex feels? cierra?
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