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Chapter Twenty Three

Chapter Twenty Three•Toxic
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Ariannas Pov

It was the same thing that night. Liam and Alex had came over, Alex and Cierra had ditched and Liam and I had the most heated make out. We also talked, and probably took a few hits but all in all it was a great night.

Today was Thanksgiving however, and I was not ready at all. My family would ask twenty million questions about college, some that I didn't feel like answering. More specifically, if there was a boy involved.

Ew.

I miss him though.

God! Why do I think this way?! My emotions are bipolar as fuck!

I decided on wearing a light pink short dress. It had a turtleneck and was long sleeve. I paired it with some ankle bootie heels and a jean jacket just because. I had done my fair into a fishtail braid with light makeup and left it at that.

Cierra had worn simple jeans, a leather jacket and paired it with a nude heel. Her eye makeup was darker than mine and she decided on wearing some jewelry along with straightening her hair.

As I walked down the stairs I had realized that some of my family was already here and were helping my mom in the kitchen.

"Arianna!" My grandmother smiled as I came into view, Cierra in tow. I smiled wrapping my arms around my nana.

"Hi nana." I smiled kissing her forehead softly and pulling away.

"You look so grown now munchkin." She said, looking at my outfit and at Cierras. "God I remember when you were a little girl too Miss. Ciece."

Cierra smiled giving my nana a hug too. She pulled away and my nana looked between the two of us.

"How's college treating you?" She asked and I shrugged while Cierra nodded.

"I'm living life." Cierra said and looked to me. What did she want me to say? That I spent almost every night since October crying over a boy?

"It'll get better soon." I decided to say, she had a confused expression on her face as Cierra chose to sit at the bar stool at the island.

"What do you mean? My nana asked me and I shrugged once more.

"There's just some things going on right now, that I have to figure out. That's all." I forced a smile and my nana shook her head. My nana doesn't buy bullshit.

"You know me better than that and I know you better than that. What's up Ari?" She said, patting her hand to her leg.

My nana would always still love me and hold me as if I was till a little six year old girl. I sighed slightly but sat on her lap and just shook my head. I could feel Cierras eyes on my intently, making sure I was alright.

"I messed up this year nana."

"How so baby?" She asked, I hadn't wanted to continue this conversation anymore. not here, not now. I just did my makeup.

When I hadn't said anything she leaned in towards me a little bit more. "You know you can tell me anything Ari. I wouldn't and I won't ever judge you."

I started to blink back the tears in my eyes. I couldn't cry right now.

"There was this boy." I started to talk but she had stopped me right there. She held up her hand, when I looked to her she just wrapped her arms around me. Filling me with all her love and care.

"I love you Arianna. I know you won't listen when I say this, and I know you heard it from tons of other people but if he can't see the beauty that you have than he is not worth it. I know how hard it is to see the ugly in the people we love, but sometimes we need to. You always feel like the good will outweigh the bad, but Arianna if there is no good.. what are you outweighing?"

And right there her words hit me. Harder than any other words had. Lucas and I had good, yes, but as time goes on there isn't anything good. It's just ghosting, and yelling and pouring alcohol on him.

I feel like there was a word, a word to define this entire thing between us.

"It's toxic for you Ari."

Toxic.

one word with so much meaning..
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