The Hardest Thing

Dinner Conversations

"Taste this Jess," Anthony held up his spoon with ice cream,"it's so good." I opened my mouth as the spoon went in. Holy jesus it was good. "It's really good." "Told you." He smiled. He took another bite before going giving me another. Usually someone feeding me would be weird but not with Anthony.

"Is this wierd?" I asked in the car ride back home. "Is what weird?Us?" Anthony asked while driving. "Yes. I mean not in a bad way, it's just that Eric was my first boyfriend. I don't know how to be with someone else or even by myself." Anthony pulled over putting the car to a stop. "Wait. What? You've only had Eric as a boyfriend? I thought you had more. Jess...I didn't know." "What's that suppose to mean? Only Eric? You think I'm a slut or something?" "No I didnt mean...it's just you're so pretty Jess..you deserve so much more than him." I sat there for a bit before speakin,"Maybe he left because I am inexperienced. Maybe he wanted someone who had done stuff. Who had a boyfriend before. Who wasn't scared." "It's not your fault Jess. Don't ever think that. This is him okay? Not you. You didn't do anything wrong. Nothing." "Then why'd he leave Anthony?" "He's stupid. That's why. He couldn't see what was right in front of him." We sat in silence for a couple minutes. "You've helped me so much this month Anthony. I can't ever repay you for that." "I can help you. Let me help you."

"How?" "You said you don't have experience. That he was your first boyfriend. Let me help. Let me show you how it should have been. How it can be. And show you some things. I can show you, help you. Let me." Anthony turned in the drivers seat looking at me. I stared back breathing uneven. "Okay...... When's the first lesson?" "Right now."