I Will Make You Fall In Love

chapter-17

I am more nervous than I've been in a very long time. Which is saying something, because I've been nervous a lot lately. Today, it's a special kind of insecurity I'm feeling. The special kind when the anticipation of something wonderful that's about to happen stands in sharp contrast to the fear of having too high hopes and finding them not being fulfilled. In other words: I'm on my way to a first date.

It's not that I don't know Penelope, on the contrary. We've been working together for weeks now and we've also spent a lot of time in each other's company when we've been off. So far, we've just hung out whenever we got the chance, sometimes in the company of other people, sometimes just the two of us. We talk, we chat, we are silly and we laugh, a lot. We got along like a house on fire something I'd have never really expected.

I had thought us to be too different when we met for the first time - age, background, everything. But it didn't matter. The day she helped me with fake dating thing from then We've been almost inseparable since, everybody has noticed. And I bet half of the set thinks we're screwing each other for weeks already - but nothing like this happened so far.

Although I wish for it, so badly.

I mean, we do flirt. There's *always* some sexual innuendo going on between us. There are sparks, there's a lot of sexual tension and I'm sure she must feel it, too. It doesn't make me uncomfortable; because it doesn't mean I lust for her all the time she's around. But there are some moments, some of her smiles or remarks, that send all my thoughts (and blood) straight into my center. It's these moments I just want to go down on her, no matter where we are. But I can't, because though I expect it all to be mutual, I'm not sure enough. Maybe it's just harmless, friendly flirting from her side. Maybe she's just a tease. Maybe she doesn't fancy me that way. That's why I'm always nervous around her, as much as I enjoy her presence.

There's another reason why I haven't pushed the matter yet. Our flirting is what I've lived off the last few weeks. I take what I can. I don't try to get more out of it, simply because I'd wanted to enjoy it rather than possibly destroy it.

And I don't want to lose her as a friend. Although she's more than that. She's a beautiful, wonderful person I admire more than I'd admit to any of us. I guess I had already fallen in love with her, how could I not? But I pushed this thought away. The fear of being rejected is too big. I don't know if she could or wants to see me as something more than a close friend to hang out with. I would like to see her as my lover maybe, but again, I don't know for sure if she even fancies me.

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Penelope looks at herself one last time before putting her dress on. The new underwear had been expensive but it made her feel sexy and would give her a confidence boost for her date with josie. Her gorgeous new friend she has had past relationships which gives her an edge over Penelope.

College is where people are meant to find new interests, change how they learn and lose their virginity if they haven't already. She did meet new people in the poetry society and the jazz appreciation group but there'd been nobody interested in her.

She takes the red wrap dress from it's hanger, it's not new but she's never worn it to a work event. She has the perfect heels to go with it, provided they're not doing much walking. Once she's completely ready she checks her phone, josie's not picking her up for another twenty minutes which means more time to be nervous. She wonders if josie will kiss her after dinner or suggest something more. Penelope isn't quite ready to show off her new underwear but she's definitely up for having her lipstick smudged.

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it had started out as a good day, the sky was blue, the sun was blazing brightly in the sky but it all
Went to hell when the sky got covered with dark-grey clouds and rain begun pouring down on them. The date Josie had planned behind one of the large trees in the park was utterly ruined.

The food she had diligently prepared got soaked by the rain and so did she, her clothes and her date. They took shelter in the building near the park. Pulling at her wet dress and letting it slap back against her skin with a wet smack, Josie said, "I'm sorry the date got ruined by the rain."

Penelope smiled at the brunette, "It's not your fault. Its not as though you could have predicted that it would rain."

"I know but it was supposed to be our first date." Josie said, looking at the rain that was slowly stopping.

Pulling the brunette in for a hug, Penelope was touched by the younger girl desire to make their first date special even if the Josie didn't want to say it out loud. Kissing the top of the her head, Penelope said into Josie's hair, "It doesn't matter that the rain ruined our picnic date, " Penelope looked longingly into the distance, she continued to say, "No matter how much i wanted to eat the food that you prepared, I'm just happy as long as I'm with you."

Josie was froze with what just happened. Penelope kissed her head which was definitely made something feel her in entire body and then she told her she is happy with Josie.

Josie was silent for a moment before saying into Penelope's chest, "It stopped raining."

Penelope laughed, releasing Josie she looked at the sky to find it had stopped raining and it had begun clearing up. She nudged the josie with her shoulder, "Let's go home. This wet clothes feel disgusting."

Josie nodded her head and stepped out of their shelter, the dark - haired girl following behind and held the younger girl's hand, intertwining their hands, the two walked back to their apartment, their shoes making squelching noises with every step they took.

They entered their apartment and shut the door behind themselves. Penelope went to the kitchen and begun heating some water to make some tea to warm them up.

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