Okay regarding yesterday..... things didn't go as planned and at around 10:22PM I ate a banana and some remaining seeds from my salad. I am trying really hard not to count calories and nit to focus on it and just listen to my body and see how I feel. It is hard. It feels like my mind is not listening to me. It is confusing to know that everything you are doing is for the better and your decisions are out of love and not hatred.
Yesterday I did a thing I haven't talked about before. When dancing i put on a short cropped shirt and some shorts. I am thinking of putting a picture of a reflection I took today up here. but I am not sure if any of you want to see it. So yeah that was kind of a risky step since I usually always wear baggy close to not show my body. I know that it was only around my sister and she knows me since she was born and I can be myself around her. But for me and my mind it was a big step.
So for breakfast I had a smoothie and a Kinder penguin 🐧 later at around 12pm I had kefir, it was midday snack I guess.
Other than that today has been good. I woke up way to early, around 7 am and did some work for Uni. So that was good.
Right now it's 1pm and the sun is shining and the weather is really nice. I am going to walk my dog in the woods. It's really nice to have a forest right behind you. The air is so refreshing in spring, in summer it is cooling and in fall simply enchanting with it's different and vibrant colors. In Winter it is simply nice to take a walk.
As you may have noticed I simply enjoy warmer weather than cold one.
Almost 12 AM
Today was relaxing I don't really have a lot to do. I played some just dance, yes I am obsessed with that game, simply because we got the new 2020 version so there is a lot of new songs to dance it.
My mum made home made burgers today. They were really tasty. Mine was with some sauce, lettuce, pickles, tomatoes and well meat. I didn't eat the upper bread. I thought it would safe me some unnecessary calories plus I am not the biggest fan of white bread. Through out the day I was snacking on some crackers, chips and gummy bears. I managed to control my portions so I am very happy and relived about that day.
While walking my dog the weather was so nice and the sun was shining beautifully. My plan for tomorrow is the same. I really don't know what to do with my life right now, but I guess I am not the only one. So it's fine. Watching TV, working out and dancing feel pretty reasonable to me 😂.
I hope you are having a great day and I wish you a lot of love, strength and positive energy ❤️
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