It's Always Been You

Heartache Remedies

I felt a great sense of comfort and calmness knowing that Michelle and Chris would be back today. After last night, having danced in the rain with Wes and sharing that moment, I needed to be away from him.

It was the perfect and most magical moment all to be ruined because he didn't kiss me.

Maybe I was selfish and petty to think that, but I couldn't help but be hurt. All my hope that maybe Wes does hold some feelings for me was stripped away when he didn't make any sort of move.

"I showed all the signs," I grumbled, shaking my head. "All the flirtation, getting flustered, being a little more touchy, making comments and teasing. I did everything to indicate that I have feelings for him."

Michelle tilted her head as she looked at me, trying to understand every detail. "Maybe he didn't see the signs?"

I gave Michelle a flat look. "This is Wes we're talking about. He's an expert in reading women and dating women."

Michelle shrugged, giving me a sheepish look. "I'm sure he just didn't see the hints you were leaving. You're not just another woman he's taking out. You guys are friends so maybe it's confusing and he doesn't know what to read into."

I leaned back against the wall, tightly hugging a pillow to my chest. I knew Michelle was trying to help but anything she could say wouldn't help me feel any better about this. I was just disappointed because I had gotten my hopes up. "I don't think so, Elle. At my parents house, when I kissed him, he did agree that it was all for show and that was why he was with me."

Michelle frowned. I could see the sympathy in her eyes. She walked over to my bed, sitting in front of me and taking hold of my hands. "I'm sorry, Fia. He's just stupid."

I shook my head, sighing lightly. "I shouldn't have gotten my hopes up. I know Wes and I know he's insanely picky when it comes to ladies. We only work so well together because we have only ever been friends."

Michelle squeezed my hand in a comforting manner. "What are you going to do?"

I met her eyes. A light bulb went off in my head as I sat up straighter, smiling insincerely. "He's my friend and I don't want to lose him. There's only one thing to do."

"Confess your feelings?" Michelle looked at me with excitement flashing in her eyes.

I rolled my eyes, shaking my head frantically. "That would only mess things up further! No."

"Then what?" She gave me a questioning look, not understanding what else could be running through my mind.

I heaved out a heavy breath, getting my head back in the game. "Things have to go back to normal."

Michelle nodded her head very slowly and unsurely. "What does that... imply, exactly?"

I bit down on my lip, trying to fight back a frown. "All the lines got blurry when we had to fake date. When we got back to campus, it was just the two of us alone all the time. Now it's time to fall back into the old routine where we would all hang out like normal and just like Wes and I had agreed, I would play cupid and set him up on dates so he can find that perfect girl he'd be willing to settle down for."

Michelle looked at me horrified, like I had just grown another head. "Are you fucking crazy?"

I quirked an eyebrow, giving her an odd look. "What about that sounds crazy?"

Of course the idea made me want to punch every girl in sight that I could see Wes with. I hated it and it made my heart clench. I knew the whole thing would drain me and leave me miserable but it was the only way to get over my feelings for Wes and have things go back to normal.