Blank Space

19.

Alyssa P.O.V

After Zayn dropped me off i changed my clothes into sweatpants and a Jb shirt and fuzzy socks, i put my hair in a ponytail and scrubbed my makeup off.

I was reading a book called 'Divergent' until someone was knocking on my door.

I rushed to get it.

It was Carl.

I let him in.

"Why are you here"? I asked him before taking a seat on my couch.

"I think we need to talk" He cleared his throat.

"Oh, so NOW you want to talk?..after you see me with Zayn you finally want to come over and talk to me" I said angrily.

"I just dont want things to end how badly they did" He told me.

"Well they did..you can leave now" I told him before walking into my bedroom.

"Dont you want to hear what i have to say"? He called after me.

I laid on my bed as he walked in.

"Why should i, you didnt want to hear what i had to say" I rolled my eyes.

"You know your acting like a bitch right"? He spat.

"And how am i"? I said sitting up.

"Dont even want me to explain to why i was ignoring you all week"

"Then explain"

"I just wanted some time to think okay?...i'm sorry" He told me.

I stared at him.

"I love you okay?..i'm falling in love with you..i broke up with my girlfriend for you" He told me.

"You dont love me" i muttered.

"Yes i do" He said coming closer.

"If you did you wouldve let me explain" I told him.

He smashed his lips on mines.

I fell on my back while he hovered on me.

(A/N: IT WILL HELP IF YOU LISTENED TO MIKAYLA JADE- POURING WHILE READING THIS)

He spread my legs which made them go on either side of his waist.

I tried to push him away but it didnt work.

We were like that for 3 minutes kissing until he got up from my bed and left the room.

I sat up and adjusted my glasses.

Once he came back he sat next to me.

"I'm sorry" I told him.

"For what"? He asked confused.

"About what happened..you know, with Zayn" I cleared my throat.

He looked down.

I looked down too.

"Did you two do anything"? He said below a whisper.

"What do you mean"? I asked him.

"I mean..did you two do anything"? He said angrily.

"No..we didnt, i was asleep and he woke me up tapping on my balcony door, and i let him in..we were just watching metflix and eating chinese..i swear nothing happened" I told him.

I didnt tell him about the kiss.

He stared at me.

I bit my lip.