Blank Space

25.

A/N: HEY GUYS!! I JUST WNATED TO TELL YOU GUYS THAT I'M REALLY EXCITED TO MAKE THSI STORY, THEIR WILL ONLY BE 30 CHAPTERS TO THIS BOOK SADLY..:( BUT THEIR WILL BE A SEQUEL TO THIS CALLED 'EMPTY SPACE' BUT WHO DO YOU GUYS THINK THAT ALYSSA SHOULD DATE? CARL, ZAYN OR JOSHUA?

Alyssa P.O.V

I walked the rest of my way home.

I was hungry, sad and tired,

I ruined it with zayn..so now all i have left is Joshua..who havent hurted me yet..

Carl called me a bitch and Zayn slapped me.

I finally got home at around 11.

I had sixteen new missed calls and texts from Kelli, and Carl.

Even though i deleted his contact i still memorized his number.

I layed in my bed and fell asleep.

I woke back up to a knock at my door.

I looekd a mess.

My bun was finding its way out and my glasses were crooked and and my makeup was smudged from tears and sleep.

As soon as i opened the door Carl rushed in and kissed me.

His kiss felt desperate and sad.

I didnt kiss back though.

Soon he pulled backa nd closed the door behind him.

"So your not gonna kiss me back'? He asked.

I gave him a blank stare before walking back into my room.

"You look terrible, what happened?..have you been crying"?  He asked worried.

I layed back in my bed and he just stared at me in my bed room doorway.

"Look, i'm sorry i called you a bitch..you just made me jelaous that you were with Zayn" He siad biteing his bottom lip.

I looked up at teh ceiling.

"I cant lose you Alyssa.." He said as his voice broke.

I looked at him.

"I'm sorry, please?..just say something" He said as tears fell down his eyes.

I opened my mouth but nothing came out..

I had nothing to say to him.

"I'm sorry"

"I forgive you" My voice sounded grundgy,

"Good..are we still together"?

I sat up.

"We never were together" I told him.

He looked as if his heart broke into millions of peices.

"What'? He said barely below a whisper.

"We never were together" I said a little louder.

"What about all those times we had"?

"It didnt mean anything to you"? He added.

I sat up and cleared my throat.

I had to tell him the truth..