Unearthed

Ch.10

It had been two weeks since our little picnic meeting. We still hung out every now and then either at Ambrosia's house or mine. But things were strained now. Ever since I told them I would try things out with Kasey again. In all honesty I would always love her. So if there was a way she could make me forget about my feeling for Daniel and Ambrosia I was all for it.

Being with them was special to me. Having them around made me better. I hadn't thought about another person since. Not even tempted. But I wasn't going to ruin what they had going because I was too selfish to let them go. No, I wouldn't do that to them.

So here I was getting dressed for our double date. I stood in my full length mirror giving myself a once over. It wasn't an actual double date so I wore something casual. Powder blue button up tucked into my true religion jeans, my obnoxiously large belt, and of course my boots. I had forgone my hat a lot lately because Ambrosia said I had a beautiful head of hair.

I sprayed cologne on my chest and wrists and went downstairs. Mon was sitting on the couch crying while watching the notebook. I snickered at her. She'd seen the movie a hundred times how could she cry each and every time.

"Oh don't you look handsome." She said when she saw me.

"Thanks momma. Why do you keep doing this to yourself?" I pointed to the screen.

"It's practically me and your father's love story. Lower class boy, upper class girl family tearing them apart until they finally find each other again. Except for the growing old and forgetting each other part. I will never forget him."

She said that last part so softly while staring at me. I knew what she meant. I reminded her a lot of dad and he would never truly be gone as long as I was here. And she was right. I felt him every moment of every day. I would talk to him about my problems which was a lot more frequently lately.

"So is this a date or...?"

"I don't even know. My feelings have been all over the place and I have no idea what to do."

"I always tell you to follow you heart, sweet pea."

"What if my heart is telling me to do something I know will break it in the end."

"There's always a risk when your heart is involved. But what's the point if you don't stand to lose something. Anything worth having is worth fighting for."

I kissed her on her cheek goodbye and headed out. We decided to go to the carnival for our little get together. The weather skyrocketed over the past couple of weeks. Today it was nearly seventy degrees. The carnival seemed like a good idea.

I thought about what my mom said. About following my heart. It was pulling me in two directions. One said risk it all and whatever happens, happens. The other said play it safe and you could keep both of your best friends and possibly someone to help ease the pain. Yeah, risking it was not an option. Second one it is.