How To Kill a Flower

Chapter 27

WARNING! RAPE IN MENTIONED IN THIS CHAPTER, READ AT YOUR OWN RISK!

Today was the day i would be getting married to Ramsey. I spent most of it with Sansa, talking over strategies and ways to take back Winterfell. 

After a while i found myself at the Godswood. Needing to feel father's presence. Mother and father would be shocked to hear that i would be married. I had always turned suitors away, even though it made mother angry to no end. I think father accepted it because he secretly didn't want me to get married anyway, he always said that no man was worthy of me.

I sat by the water, touching it with my fingertips and watching the ripples distort my reflection.

Shadow lounged close by, rolling in the grass and enjoying the peacefulness. 

Hearing footsteps close by, i looked up to see Ramsey strolling into the Godswood.

"Ramsey." I greeted, looking back to my reflection.

"I thought i would ind you here," He was standing beside my figure, "It really is quiet peaceful here."

"My father would come out here often." 

"I heard he was a great man, an honorable man." I could hear him mocking my father by the tone of his voice.

"Honor made him lose his head and honor got my brother killed," I said sharply, looking up at  him, "Honor is pointless in a world we live in."

He grinned at my harsh tone, "And you don't want to be like your brother. Killed at his own wedding."

"No," I stopped touching the water just staring into my reflection. I looked over my scar and my hardened eyes, so much has changed since i had been here all those years ago. "I intend to learn from my family's mistakes. Survival over honor is the only way to make it our alive."

"You are very mysterious Cirilla." He crouched down next to me, reaching a hand to skim over my scar. "How did you get this?"

I scoffed, "Joffrey, He decided the only way he could lose his feelings for me was to make me ugly." 

Ramsey grinned, "The jokes on him it seems," I looked at him, he had the same predatory gaze that Joffrey always had, "because it made you even more beautiful." 

Only when Joffrey looked at me, i knew the little shit could never really do anything to me. Ramsey on the other hand, he was dangerous. 

"Thank you," I looked at Shadow, who was staring at Ramsey as if he was waiting for my signal to attack. 

"He really is a fine beast," I looked back at Ramsey to see him staring at Shadow, "Even my hounds aren't that protective of me."

"That is because you use them for sport, Shadow is my friend. My protector." 

"And what could he possible protect you from in your own home?" I knew he was bating me.

I stood, straightening out my skirts, "Anyone who keeps Sansa and I from surviving." I whistled lowly, Shadow bounding over to me as i walked back to my chambers, "If you'll excuse me, i need to prepare for our wedding."

"Of course, I look forward to tonight." His mouth moved into a smirk, "And for the rest of our nights together."

I did not turn back to him, only kept walking. Tonight was the beginning of many painful memories i will keep with me.

I only wished it was Gendry i was marrying instead, and that my family were alive and home with me. But this wasn't a fairytale.