How To Kill a Flower

Chapter 40

I had wondered my home for hours after the meeting. Shadow at my side, i knew he could feel my nerves. Just thinking of what might be. I was going to be on the wall using my bow. Jon insisted saying he needed an archer like me to watch everyone's back. I didn't like the idea of everyone else fighting while i sat on the walls, but i wasn't going to disobey his orders. I was going to make sure i protected as many people as i could.

In my wondering i didn't notice that someone was watching me. Feeling eyes on me i looked up to see Gendry and Arya separating with her weapon in her hands. I smiled slightly, he could make anything. Arya followed Gendry's gaze, she smirked at me knowingly. At this point i think anyone with eyes could see the way Gendry and I looked at each other. She said something that made his eyes snap back to her before she walked away.

I ran my fingers through shadow's coat before sighing and walking towards Gendry. Shadow watching for a moment before huffing and walking away to find his brother. 

We stared at each other for a moment.

"Hi." I said, Gods how lame was i. 

His lips slightly lift in amusement, "Hello. I hear you'll be on the walls."

"Yes, Jon didn't want me on the field." I explained, my tone annoyed as  i rolled my eyes.

"I'm thankful then." My eyes once again caught his, "I would have gone crazy if you were out there."

I don't say anything causing him to continue talking, "Ciri, there wasn't a day i didn't think of you. I hated how i left, i was young and stupid. I realize now that titles don't matter, to me at least."

"It never mattered to me Gendry. I told you that, but you still left me."

He reached forward, putting a hand on my cheek, "I regret that every day, i regret not taking you with me. I regret not telling you how i was falling in love with you."

My eyes searched his for any lies, "I don't have many regrets in my life Gendry, everything i have ever done was for my family, but i do regret not running away with you." My hand reach up to cover his on my cheek, "But i do know that if i had left with you that it would have been the biggest mistake of my life. I would have left Sansa there alone. So left go of your guilt, because i have."

He stepped closer to me, close enough to put his forehead on mine, "I've thought of your lips for years, wishing i could kiss them once last time."

"Then what are you waiting for?" I ask with a smirk. 

He wasted no time capturing my lips with his. It was like fire spread though my body, warming me even in the snow. Our lips catching up on all the years we missed out on. His hands moved down to my waist, pulling me as close as he could with our thick cloaks. My arms reaching up around his neck. After what seemed like forever, we pulled away. Our breaths came out in pants, the cold air displaying it in front of us.

I grabbed his hand, pulling him with me up to my chambers. We ran through the halls, giggling and kissing as we went. I haven't felt this happy in a long time, and it sucked that i felt this way right before a battle that could kill everyone i loved.

Eventually we made it to my chambers, it took us forever to make it due to us not being able to keep our hands off each other.

Once in my chambers, Gendry looked around. After a moment he looked back at me and grinned, he looked just as happy as i was. Both of us kicking off our boots as we both just stood there.

I undid my cloak, letting it fall to the floor. His eyes turning serious as he watched me reach for my shirt. I began undoing the laces of my vest, dropping it to the floor. Leaving me in my tunic and leather pants. He reached up to his cloak, pulling it off without moving his gaze from me.