Searching For Euphoria

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Forlorn woke up late and he groaned as he gets up. He took his phone and looked at the time. It was almost twelve and he got a text from Brei.

It was a good morning from her. He smiled and greeted her back. Wanting to call, he was about to dial her number when he got a call.

He didn't want to answer it but well some force is telling him to answer so he did.

"What's up?" He asked.

"What's up? You know what's up! Your mother is damn killing me. She's bugging me to tell her where you are!" Brad yelled at him. That was expected tho.

"What a surprise that you are surprised. It was expected of her to," Lorn said as he get off the bed.

"Ha-ha! Not funny. You should freaking come home soon or I'll tell your mom that you went your way to that island to find that - that dream girl of yours!"

Forlorn sighed.

"You know she's not a freaking dream and you know what? Whether I find her or not, I'm still spending my days till I'm contented and I'll go home." After telling brad that, he hung up.

When his phone started ringing again, he grunts and answered. "What?"

"Woah! Did I call in a bad time?" He heard her ask. Her voice kinda calmed him down.

"Uh... I'm sorry. I didn't know it was you who called."

Lorn heard her laugh.

"That's okay. You're probably running away from reality like me too."

What she said made Lorn frown a bit.

Running away from reality?

"What are you talking about?" He asked.

"Oh it's nothing. I have to go now." And with that she hang up.

Forlorn sat on his bed and face palmed. What Brei said about running away from reality.

Is my brain just creating some kind of hollow projection and that's Euphoria? Is it why I ran away? Because I was running out of my disillusion in that city? What really am I looking for? Is it Euphoria or just euphoria? What the fuck am I feeling?

It took Forlorn the whole afternoon thinking about his feelings. What the hell?! Euphoria is real. He knows she's real. The evidence are everywhere in this city but the thing is, why can't he see her? Is she really in this city? No! It's impossible that she stayed here after all those years and that's ...

I got to sort out my feelings... I'm sorry Brei.

•••

It was around eight in the evening when Brei checked her phone for a text. There was nothing in there. No text from Mikael and it was new.

"Did I offend him?" She asked herself. She wanted to send him a text but she also didn't want to bother him.

It took a while for her to decide what she'd do but it ended up to her deciding not to text. She thinks maybe he need some time alone.

•••

The next day, there was still no text and she started to text him. Brei asked how he is and stuff but no reply at all so she decided to just write a chapter down about their situation.

The whole day, she waited and there was no text at all. She turned off her lamp and rest her head on her desk.

Why? Why do I feel like he left me? Why was I the one who caught feelings this time? Why fall for him so fast?

Brei ended up shedding tears just cause she's frustrated about having feelings for him. She's been with guys who she kind of got close to but she never caught feelings until Mikael.

•••

The next few days went like that, no text at all. So, Brei just accepted the fact-that's love, it goes away when you start loving it back.