My Fairy King

Dear Why the Downcast Eyes?

August 7rd 1971
*Freddie's POV*

She seems to walk around here everyday at about 4:30. But why is she avoiding here? I thought she liked it...did I say something wrong last time? Oh fuck I must've annoyed her more. Right on time I saw her walk past. She had her hair down and was putting ballet shoes in that bag she always carried.

"Fred you look like an actual creep! All you've been doing this past week is waiting for her to walk past!" I cringed at his yelling he sounded like a fucking mosquito. "I just want to see her smile or something...not look so depressed darling" I wish I knew what's gotten into me lately maybe I'm just so bored I watch teenage girls out the window-IM NOT A PERVERT I SWEAR.

*Cadences POV*

I felt the warm sun on my shoulders and it felt nice compared to the freezing dance studio. My god it's summer and it's still so cold in there. I reached in my pocket seeing I had a few pounds maybe I could buy some ice cream. Ehh probably not...I need to watch my damn calories I've got a show in a few weeks.

Yes I'd been avoiding Freddie's stall lately I just don't know how I feel about him. He's nice but also just-god I have no clue. I walked to a little food shop and got a bottle of water it felt cold in my hands. I watched the little drops of condensation I'd been watching everything lately not knowing when the last time I'd be able to would be.

I know I'd only be legally blind but still I'll barely be able to see a thing the doctor said mostly just colors and light.  So if these glasses don't work no more seeing my beautiful mum or my handsome dad.  I'll only be able to feel all those gorgeous fabrics and no more dance the thing I've worked towards almost all my life.  I took a deep breath I need to think positive!  There's new medicines everyday and it the glasses don't work within the next few years hopefully they'll be something!

I've been walking around these shops lately just to look at everything and get some fresh air.  Being cooped up in a studio with a hundred other people isn't always the best.  After about an hour of walking around I had to go home for supper.  I was tired that practice was a long one we were doing Giselle and I was the lead.  With my vision they almost had to have me quit but I eventually got my shit together so they didn't recast. 

When I got home my brother was sitting on the couch and and I said hi.  My brother was 9 years older than me and I had another who lived in the US and was 18 years older.  I wonder who was the mistake?  At least my parents don't treat me like a mistake.  I set all my stuff down in my room and helped my mum finish cooking.  We were having lasagna and vegetables that night and I was happy about that.

August 9th 1971
*Freddie's POV*

I haven't designed anything in ages but lately I've had some inspiration to! And before you jump to any conclusions it's got absolutely nothing to do with her-but she would look quite nice in yellow.  Oh maybe with green to complement her eyes! I started sketching a summer dress with a few of the colors on the bottom.  She was just a lovey model and some good inspiration nothing more.  Dear shes 15 I'd never dream of it!

"Fuck" I cursed to myself when the skin tone is used was far too dark for her.  But it's not like she would see it anyway so I just kept going.  There was no need in putting a mouth since I'd never seen her smile!  I decided to put her hair up in these little twists and all that since she did do ballet-oh I love ballet it's so beautiful!  I looked back at it getting ready to finish coloring.

I started to color everything it was mostly a yellow but with little green hints I'd almost always seen her in a jumper no matter the heat so I really haven't got a clue what her body looks like so that was my best guess.  Even though she was short she had those long ballerina legs and that's most of what I know.  I imagined how she'd look in it and damn she'd look pretty.

I smiled to myself maybe my mum could help me actually make this.  I'd need to get her measurements though...how could I do that without seeming like a creep or actually telling her?  We only know each other's names what the hell am I doing?  I'm going positively mad I tell you.  My break was coming to an end and I looked up one last time in hopes of seeing her.

But nope no Cadence just a million other bloody teens but not the one I'm looking for.  All I need is just one conversation and I can make her smile.  I walked back inside our booth.  "Find your soulmate yet?" Roger asked.  "I'm still looking for her darling but she'll come around soon."

Just to Clarify at the moment Freddie doesn't really have any romantic feelings toward Cadence just yet.  Mostly just thinking about her and wanting to make her happy.  Romantic feelings won't come along for another few weeks.