My Fairy King

4 Senses

MATURE CONTENT WARNING
October 19th 1971
*Cadences POV*

This was it my last day of sight.  You might ask what happened in the previous month but to sum it up I began getting crippling migraines that eventually showed why I was loosing my sight.  A few nerves in my eyes would have to be severed to save my life causing me to be completely blind.  My entire life is over...

These past few days my brother and Freddie had been taking me to see whatever I wanted even if I had to pull it to my face I still saw it.  The news that you'd loose one of your senses was devastating.  I knew I'd never see my ballet costumes Christmas decorations Freddie's smile etc. ever again.  Well on a lighter note speaking of Freddie after the park incident we'd had our first kiss.  I'd tell you all about everything but it's kind of boring looking back on how slow we were moving.

We sat together on his bed as I held his hand close to my face studying everything from the rings on his fingers to the black nail varnish.  Then I got up and sat on his leg so I could look at that gorgeous face.  Tears welled in my eyes I didn't want to do it.  I'd rather just die.

"Oh darling no more tears...it's all okay." He soothed me and rubbed up and down my arm.  I got a small kiss and sighed before moving to lay my head on his shoulder.  We sat together in silence for a while as I thought about all the things I'd never see like my child or grandchildren.  Not even my dress the day I got married.

But he encouraged me not to spend this day sad and to enjoy it.  So eventually I listened to him and stopped crying.  "Is there anything else you'd like to see love?" He asked and patted my palm.  I didn't really know how to ask what I wanted to without being perverted.  Just before I was blind I wanted to see what a naked man looked like.  I wanted to ask him to go get one of those magazines or something just so I could see.

But I shook my head not wanting to make anything awkward.  We kept the day as normal as we could and my brother agreed to cover for me so I could spend the night at his house.  We laid in bed together just our shoulders touching as we held hands.  Got this is stupid!  You can't ruin your one chance beca you're afraid!

"Freddie I want to see a naked man." I just kind of blurted out making him giggle softly in amusement.  "Don't laugh" I grumbled being embarrassed "You can go get one of those magazines."  He reached over and turned on the light still giggling.  "Stores aren't open right now...I can dig out an old drawing from when we did anatomy or I can just show you." He offered wholeheartedly.

I thought for a second my cheeks going a bit red as I nodded.

The experience as a whole was a rather interesting and slightly embarrassing one. But, it was greatly appreciated. I thought it would make me feel complete and satisfied, but it did nothing of the sort. It made me even more depressed and empty, as I truly knew this would be it.

I'm alive, yay.