IM GIVING UP ON LOVING YOU

FLASHBACK

JISOO POV

I entered my room and wash my face before laying myself on my bed. It's a new year yet i feel so sad. Not because i have a problems to deal with, but Lisa. Like, how can Jennie easily cheated on her for Kai? Yes , i know Jennie have a crush since before then. So , there's no point for her to feel sad when she break up with Lisa. I wanna text lisa so baf right now , but i guess she need a space and some meantime alone. So i control myself and opened my Instagram.

I saw one of Jennie post on 23rd December 2018 where she tagged Lisa with her captions "my boo". Mostly, BLINK really like when it's comes to jennie and lisa , they even have their ship name, named JENLISA cool isn't? I really hope that they know that jennie and lisa are in relationship before but guess, there's nothing right to tell because look now, they both separate , jennie with kai and leaving Lisa alone. Im kinda upset but i dont know, i feel a bit happy when i read this news today. Have no idea why but , i need to tell you all that i actually in love with Lisa since i met her in our company before.

FLASHBACK

I ENTERED YG ENTERTAINMENT FOR MY AUDITION. I'M BIT NERVOUS SINCE I'LL SING IN FRONT OF THE CEO AND OTHER PARTICIPANTS , I SIT AT A LONG CHAIR WITH 3 OTHER PARTICIPANTS BESIDES. WHEN IT'S MY TURN , I STAND UP BUT I WAS FALLING DOWN , THE 3 PARTICIPANTS COMES AND HELPED ME TO GET UP. "Hey don't be nervous, you can do it" A BEAUTIFUL GIRL SAID, SINCE SHE TALKED IN ENGLISH, I COULDN'T UNDERSTAND WELL SO I JUST SAID "THANK YOU" TO HER AND SHE SMILE. "You can do this, trust yourself!" A BITCHY FACE OF GIRL TALK TO ME , IT'S A BIT SCARY FOR ME BY SEEING HER FACE LIKE THAT, BUT SHE'S NICE , SHE CHEER ME UP. ANOTHER GIRL HELP ME TO GET UP WITHOUT SAYING ANYTHING BUT SHE JUST SMILE AS IT WOULD GIVE ME SOME MOTIVATION TO BE CONFIDENT. "Thank you" i said again when she started to speak thai language. I have no time and goes straightly to the audition and start singing.

2 month being trainees
"Lis! You already speak and write anything in Hangul really well now" rosè excitedly say
Well I've been accepted as YG trainees and now im here with 3 angels that helps me before, jennie, rosè and Lisa. Jennie told me that she was a korean but she study oversea that makes her to speak English well. Rosè is Australian and she once participate in choir team at one of the church near her house, while Lisa really like to dance and gonna be a successful idol , she come along from Thailand to reach her ambition.
We've living together in the same room, eating together and practice together. It's really nice to have 3 of them with me. We crack a joke around.

3 years being traineess

For this 3 year together, I've closed to all member especially rosè, so she the one that heard my problem, secret more than Lisa and Jennie.
"Unnie, why don't you just tell her that you like her?" Rosè asked me while eating a snacks that i bought from 7E.
"It's hard rosè, guess I'll wait more so i Could tell her when I'm fully ready." I said
"What if Lisa involve in a relationship soon?" She said while her mouth full with foods
"Then, i just tell her atleast i didn't need to keep it by  myself anymore" i explained.
She nodded as she understands my plan.
Lisa and me totally closed to each other and she usually would kiss my cheeks to wake me up, i know she did it for fun , but i feel different. It's make me in love with her more. But i shouldn't continue to love her since we gonna debut soon.
I'll try to forget you and love you as my friend then. I promise

END OF FLASHBACK

I laughed myself when i remembered some stories that happened when we were trainees. "I hope i can turn back time so we can be trainees and i can confess her about my feelings instead of jennie" i mumbled before i fall in my sleep