IM GIVING UP ON LOVING YOU

hwaiting

A/n: sorry for not updating. Im focusing on my 2md story , TRUTH AS LIE. This story will be finish after 2/3 more chapters left. I'll try to finish it later on maybe. So enjoy

JISOO POV
im now with Lisa. She's been staring at her phone for a while. "Are you okay?" I ask and pat her back. She look at me and smile. "Im good". I nodded and scroll my phone. Something appears in my mind. I remember jennie always said that she will go to me or Maeng's house when she's down or when her mum not in country. I then text maeng.

To maeng:
Maeng?
From maeng:
Yes jisoo?
To maeng:
I know jennie is with you. But why did you lie?
From maeng:
😶
To maeng:
She's really with you. Right? Please don't lie😔
From Maeng:
Look jisoo. I don't want her to get hurt , but haist.. yes she's with me.
To Maeng:
Can i talk to her? Please maeng. Tell her to call me later. 10pm?
From Maeng:
Idk chu.. she's resting rn.. i don't want to ruin her mood. Im sorry
To Maeng:
But she use her phone right?
From Maeng:
Her phone? She already shut down her phone. I asked her manager if she have a schedule , but she's free. So you can't talk to her for sure. Sorry chu😔
To maeng:
Arraseo.. but, please tell her , i really wanna talk to her. Okay?
From Maeng:
I will.
To maeng:
Thank you very much maeng🖤
From maeng:
You're welcome chu.

I put my phone down and sigh. "Why won't you talk to her?" I said as she looking at me worriedly. "It's all settle right? I've told her already" she firmly say. "You know what lis? You're not a girl that i know. Where's lisa that i know ? Lisa that will try to listen an explanation? Lisa that will try to fix everything?" I stares at her without realising my tears fall down. "Jisoo" she wipe my tears and sigh. "I know what i did was wrong. She explained all things , yes i know the truth , it's not her fault either. But jisoo.. it's just.. i- i didn't love her anymore. When i knew she's with Kai , i don't know what else to say , what else to think. It's really hurt. But then , there you are , fill in my happiness. I- i tried to love her jisoo. But i can't.. I've tried.." she explained looking down while holding back her tears. Suddenly my phone ringing , i wipe my tears and see who's calling. Jennie. "I'll pick this up" i get up from the couch and run outside.

On call
.
Jennie:
Unnie?
Me:
Jennie! Glad you call me. Im worry sick you know!
Jennie:
Haist unnie , im good don't worry.
Jisoo:
Are you okay? Im sorry about all things.
Jennie:
I will be okay.. don't worry.. and unnie , it's not your fault okay? You don't need to say sorry to me.
Jisoo:
Hmmm.. still.. im so sorry
Jennie:
Haist unnie.. it's not your fault. I hate it when someone say sorry even tho they're not doing anything wrong..
Jisoo:
Arraseo.. can we talk tomorrow?
Jennie:
Im not ready yet unnie... 2 week start from today. I'll talk to you after 2 weeks. I need to relax myself.. im sorry unnie
Jisoo:
Hey , it's okay , take your time.. well , we will meet soon then? Make sure to show me your gummy smile . Okay?
Jennie:
Ne!!!
Jisoo:
I really miss you jendeuk..
Jennie:
I mis you too unnie , but im really sorry okay...
Jisoo: it's okay jendeuk..
Jennie:
Thank you.  Unnie i need to hang up now.. we will talk soon. I love you . Please take care of Lisa. Okay?
Jisoo:
I will. Take care too and please don't get sick okay?
Jennie:
Neee

I hang up the call and enter back at the house seeing Lisa playing with her phone. I get into the bedroom and lay myself on the bed , staring at the ceiling blankly.

JENNIE POV

after the call, i get myself on the bed and play a song while looking at the window silently. I faking my smile as i see  raining heavily outside. And inside the house , my tears flow continuely.
.

Sometimes like a starlight,
You can stay by my side,
When i open my eyes in the middle of the sleep,
I wish i could even erase my dreams,
With a difficult  feelings,
Im having a hard day ,
And today as well,
The night that i suddenly missed.

THROWBACK

"Babe" a soft voice can be heard on top of me. I slowly open my eyes and see my beautiful  yet handsome  girl smiling and kissing my cheeks and my forehead multiple times. "Yah it's tickling!!" I shout and laugh as she kiss my neck. "I love you so much" she said Laying herself next to me and hugs me tightly. "How many times will you tell me about that huh? I know you love me so much babe" i said showing my gummy smile and pinch her nose and chuckling. "Well , i will always tell you that mandu~" she playing with my little fingers. "babe" she ask while staring at me deeply. "Hmm" i said while cuddling on her neck. "Let's continue our life together at New Zealand soon" she smile. "really???? Woah i really planning to live there soon after our disbandment" i explain. "Then that's good for sure" she chuckled. "Babe" now my turn to say something. "Yes cutie?" She caressing my hair . "Promise me you won't hurt me? Promise me you won't leave me? Promise me you won't stop loving me?" I said looking at her brown eyes deeply. She smile uncontrollable before she kiss my lips. "I will never break you. You're my world , that i can't live without , you're my everything , i love you than my words , my actions could describe. Lot of girls but you're my favourite and will be always my favourite" she said kissing me again and again

End of throwback

I smile happily as i remember those sweet moment between me and Lisa. Well now everything change , i was scared that she might leave me , hurt me. But i think im the one that hurt and break all promises between both of us. "I really love you but , i think it's my time to leave you , for your happiness. Even it's really hurt to accept the fact. But i hope it will going well. Hwaiting!" I put confident towards myself.

LISA POV
As i see her entering the room , i quickly get up to get some chocolate from the fridge and bring it to her. "Can i come" i ask looking at her. She's crying again. She get up and sit on the bed. Wiping her tears , she smile before tapping the bed as she doesn't mind me joining her there. I smile and close the door before sitting beside her. I feel guilty that she's crying. "Stop crying. It's not your fault okay?" I pat her hair. "Won't you feel guilt about all things lisa?" She stares at me while eating the chocolate that i gave her. "I did. But what can i do? If i didn't tell her , its will become more worse then" i sigh. "Oh" she nodded. "you know? I wish i could turn back time" she faking her laugh. "Why?" I ask. "well , maybe if i didn't confess the truth , maybe this won't happened. Maybe if i can read people mind , maybe i would see all things that people had planned" she smile but still , she's sad. "Im so sorry chu" i hugs her tightly. She hugs me back as she burst into tears again. I comfort her while patting her back . Now im burst into tears too. This year , everything happened just in a blink of eyes. This year is really bring me down. I feel upset , i feel sad , i think my ego hold my body this year. I couldn't listen to anyone explanation either. It's hurt. For real. "Jennie said she will meet me after 2 weeks. Come with me and let's fix Everything" jisoo break the hugs between both of us. " I will" i said smiling , so she can stoo herself from crying.

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A/n: sorry again guys , but i hope you enjoy