FEAR

Chapter Fifteen

Chapter Fifteen

The next few days were absolutely wonderful. Since I wasn't allowed to go to school still, Devon and the guys hung out with me since I wasn't allowed to leave the house. As soon as we got back home after the concert, mom made sure that I was put on lock down until things calmed down a lot. We didn't know when that was going to be, so I expected I would be stuck at home for a while.

When I wasn't hanging out with all of the people in my house, Devon and I would sneak up to my room to make out and talk. I was tempted to show him the letter from Brian but every time I saw him smile, I would make up my mind and leave it in my box. I decided to just give it to him and tell him not to read it until he got back to New York.

Friday after school, Alex came home with Nate and Jay although they didn't seem too excited about it. When I saw his face, I noticed that Nate taking care of the problem meant that he punched him. I tried not to laugh as he walked in. It was always good having a brother.

"Can we talk?" Alex asked me.

"Yea sure." I told him. Then he followed me up the stairs to my room where I shut the door and waited for him to start. It took a few minutes before he could get anything out.

"I'm so very sorry for what I did to you." He started. "Things got crazy with the alcohol. I didn't know how to act around you. It was the first thing we did together as a sort of couple. I mean I knew we were just friends but that night I wanted to ask you out. I thought the whiskey would help with my nerves, then things spiraled and I had no clue what was happening. Please, please, please forgive me." He was practically down on his knees in front of me. I was surprised that he wasn't.

"Alex, seriously, I'm over it. It's no big deal." I told him nonchalantly.

"But it is a big deal."

"It's fine. I'm OK now so that's all that matters. We are friends. It wasn't hard to forgive you as soon as it happened."

"How can you be all great about this? After everything that happened to you, then what I did, how can you forgive me so easily?"

I walked over to him and looked into his eyes. "You are my friend. I know you wouldn't hurt me if you were sober. Besides, you have probably been stressing about this all week. I'm sure you put yourself through enough without me having to punish you for what happened."

"You are too good for the guys around here." He kissed my cheek and we both went downstairs. Devon seemed nervous when we walked into the living room. I had already told him that I was going to forgive Alex and he seemed happy about that. He knew what it was like to do something stupid and regret it right after it happened. I knew Alex felt the same way.

We all decided to play board games until it was time for everyone to go home. Kaylee was a bit clingy with Devon and me but I knew it was because she hadn't been away from both of us at the same time for more than a day.

She was really excited when we brought her home a couple bags of toys and clothes. She enjoyed presents like most girls though. She even got Jason to try all of her play makeup which I got a bunch of pictures of. By the end of the night each guy including Jack and my dad had either red or bright pink fingernails, eye shadow and lip gloss all over their faces. They didn't even complain about it which made my heart melt to have so many people love my little girl as much as I did.

I was going to miss her when Devon took her with him when he left. Hell, I wasn't even sure how I was going to manage to stay sane without her. I had to keep telling myself that she would be safer away from me, looking at her adorable chunky cheeks while she slept, I knew that I was doing the right thing.