SCARED OF LONELY

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Dre POV

"I can't believe I've been dating Beyonce for months but you've never met her. That ain't right," Shawn said shaking his head as we sat in the private room.

I also find it a bit odd. Shawn talks about Beyonce and Ray all the time. My homie is in love with this woman. That's the main reason why I haven't told her about Shawn's relationship.

I stood up and walked out of the private room. Someone then bumped into me. I looked down and I saw this cute boy. I bent down to his level. "Hey fella. What are you doing here without an adult?"

He smiled. "Well, my mommy. She said she's just locking the car," he said.

"Ray," I heard Shawn from behind me.

"Daddy," Ray cheered as he ran into Shawn's arms.

I remember now. Those two have been planning that father and son camp thing with for about a month. I think its a genius idea to have it the weekend before summer vacation.

"Hey you two," I heard a female voice. She came to Shawn.

She looks rather familiar.

"Finally. Dre this is Beyonce. Beyonce meet Dre," Shawn said introducing me to her.

She extended her hand. "It is such a pleasure to finally meet you Dre. Shawn talks about you all the time," she said smiling and shaking my hand.

I swallowed hard. "You too Bey," I said smiling nervously.

I looked at her closely... Damn, its her.

FUCK!

"Ummm, Shawn. I gotta bounce," I said going to Shawn and dapping him up.

He looked at me kinda concerned. "You alright man?"

I smiled weakly. "Yah man. I'm cool. I just gotta go somewhere real quick," I said then I quickly left.

I ran into and got in my car. I was trembling in fear.

My phone rang. I groaned when I saw her calling me.

"Look, I can't talk right now," I said picking up the call then I hung up.

I bet y'all wondering why I'm freaking out. It all happened six years ago.

Flashback

"Are you sure you can do this Dre?" One of the man I worked with said as I loaded my gun in the car.

"Just tell me where this nigga at and imma shoot his ass," I said wrapping the bandana over my nose and mouth to make a mask. I then put on a cap.

Right now, we are at the park. We are in the car busy looking for some nigga who refuses to pay up for the coke he bought from us.

My shooting skills are on point so I highly doubt imma miss his ass.

I tucked my gun nicely behind me and I came out of the car. I walked slowly as I scanned the place. My eyes then fell on this cute young couple. They were walking hand in hand with the young woman who was pregnant. Her baby bump was clearly visible.

I couldn't help but smile. The young man would occasionally rub her belly and that would make the young woman smile. They looked like they were in love since they'll occasionally stop and kiss for a while.

How cute. They look like one big happy family with their little bun in the oven.

I then spotted the guy I'm suppose to kill. I walked a bit faster following him.

He spotted me and started running and I did the same.

"Stop you motherfucker!" I yelled.

I can make the shot. He may be far but I trusted my precision.

I aimed and just as I was about to fire. The wind blew dust to my face. I fired a couple of times without even looking where I was aiming.

I then heard a loud scream. I removed the dust from my face and saw that I missed the motherfucker.

"August! Baby stay with me," I heard. I moved closer and saw the young man from earlier shot on the chest a couple of times. He had his head resting on the pregnant woman's lap.

SHIT!

I went over and hid behind the tree. I watched as everyone gathered around to help wherever they could. The pregnant woman was crying so hard.

"August baby you gotta get up. I love you," she said between sobs.

The man which I'm guessing was August was busy coughing out blood.

The paramedics and the police came and flooded the place.

"Someone please get her out of here," one paramedics said and they tried to remove the pregnant woman so that they can work on August.

"August you can't leave me! Your son needs you! I need you!" She shouted as they tried to remove her.

I watched as they worked on August.

"Time of death, 2:35 p.m." the paramedic said.

I watched as they placed August in a body bag.

"No! I can't live if living is without you August! I can't raise this baby alone!" She shouted as tears streamed down her cheeks.

Damn. I just automatically made this woman a single mother. I just took the life of her soulmate.

What have I done?

"Ma'am, you have to calm down. Your blood pressure is too high. Its not safe for the baby," one of the paramedics said to her.

"I want my Aug-...Uggghhh!" She groaned loudly as she clutching onto the side of her belly. "Aaahhhhh! It hurts!" She screamed with her hand touching the side of her belly.

They came and placed her on a stretcher. "Is my baby going to be fi-...Uggghhh!" She groaned still clutching her belly.

"Calm down ma'am. We are going to help you and your baby," the paramedic said.

The woman really looks like she's in tremendous pain.

I've had enough of all that so I decided to just walk away.

I just killed an innocent man. I just couldn't imagine the amount of pain that woman was in.

Her whole world came tumbling down and its all because of me....

From that day. I stopped being a hitman.

I can't believe I killed Beyonce's baby daddy.

How can I even break this down to Shawn? He has told me the pain Beyonce went through because her baby daddy was killed in front of her. He told me that Beyonce almost lost Ray that day.

How can I face Beyonce now?