A Long Way From Home

Broken

Yoongi's POV

Everyone was waiting at the house for Hoseok to return. He hasn't been back in three full days, we were all very worried. I thought that something horrible must have happened to him, either he went to Sirius and took out his anger on him or he went to be with y/n. Either way the outcome would be bad for him and for us.

"I see him." Jungkook said as he ran downstairs. I looked over to the windows and saw a very angry looking Hoseok. "Oh shit" I thought.

"I'll go talk to him." I sighed as I stood up and walked over to the front door. I gripped the handle hesitating to go outside, knowing that the Hoseok I knew before was long gone. I opened the door and he stood there looking at me. This was going to be interesting.

Hoseok's POV

I came home for the first time in three days. I didn't want to but I had to be there for my pack even if it hurt me. I saw Yoongi come outside, he looked a little scared. I started to walk to the front door because I didn't want to speak to him, but he stopped me.

"Not yet, you need to cool off before you go in." Yoongi said from beside me. I shook my head and scoffed at him.

"I'm fine." I firmly stated as he pushed his hand onto me more making sure I wouldn't move.

"You're not fine, don't give me that shit." Yoongi responded. I couldn't take it anymore and started to clench my fists.

"Get your hand off me." I spat at Yoongi as he stood there not moving a muscle.

"GET YOUR FUCKING HAND OFF ME!" I yelled and he looked a little surprised.

"No, I get that you're mad, but you can't take another step until you cool off. I'm not putting our pack members at risk. I know what you're capable of when you're mad, Hoseok." Yoongi explained. I stood there knowing he was right but I still couldn't bare the thought. I looked directly at him and felt an unwanted tear trickle down my cheek.

"I miss her." I mumbled as I felt another tear stream down my face. Yoongi softened his look and gave me a hug.

"I know." He whispered into my ear. We heard the front door open and I stopped hugging Yoongi and saw Jungkook standing there. I quickly wiped the tears from my face, so that I wouldn't look like I was crying.

"How are you doing?" Jungkook asked as he looked at me.

"He's not that great." Yoongi responded as he turned to walk towards the door. He went inside and Jungkook stayed back.

"I'm fine, Yoongi is wrong." I said as Jungkook looked over at me shaking his head.

"No, Yoongi is right. Hoseok I know that you're hurting, I am too. I just want you to know that I'm here for you and so is everyone else." Jungkook said as he gave me a small smile. That was all it took to make the tears come back. Jungkook walked up to me and hugged me just like Yoongi did.

"I can't stop blaming myself..." I cried. Jungkook sighed and hugged me tighter.

"You're not to blame. It's nobody's fault, okay?" Jungkook replied as I was sobbing into his shoulder.

"I... was so mad... I didn't... stop to realize... what I was doing..." I said slowly between sobs. Jungkook tensed as I felt him start to shake. I heard him crying softly and I rubbed his back to try and calm him down.

"I need her... I need her so bad... it hurts to even breathe... how do I forget?..." I sighed as Jungkook stopped hugging me and looked me directly in the eyes.

"You don't forget, you learn to push past the pain and suffering. In the end, you'll forgive yourself and you'll be able to remember only the good times with her. I promise." Jungkook said as he wiped the tears off his face. I never knew that all I needed was Jungkook to tell me to learn to forgive rather than forget.

"Thank you, Jungkook." I said as I smiled at him and wiped my own tears away.

"I'll always be here for you, Hoseok." He replied as he smiled and made his way inside the house. I stayed outside for another hour or so watching the night sky. After that, I went inside and the whole pack was waiting for me to arrive. They greeted me with hugs and kind words, they are the best people in the world.