Benjey~ him and I forever

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BENJI POV

I was so excited to take Jorge out for lunch. Im so happy he wanted to. I knew he would say yes but I was still nervous. I decided on my baby blue hoodie that I know Jeyjey likes and some black jeans. I needed to go to the bathroom but Jeyjey is in their now. I don't care hopefully he wont mind that I go in there. I walked into the bathroom and Jorge looked at me and blushed. He was shirtless and he looked really good. I grabbed his waist and pulled him close to me and I softly kissed his lips, which may or may not have turned into a small makeout session.

When we pulled away we were both out of breath. He continued to get ready and I put some blush on my cheeks and painted on some freckles. I put a small bit of blush on Jeyjey's nose and he laughed at me.

I walked out of the bathroom and laid in bed wait for him to get ready. He was taking forever but I didn't mind. I was so nervous this is our first "date" you could say and I really want it to go well. I want to ask him to be my boyfriend but today isn't the day. I want to take him to a fancy restaurant and get him flowers and I want it to be really special. I really like him and I want to be with him.

He walked into the room from the bathroom and my jaw dropped. He looked amazing. He looked perfect and amazing. I didn't know what to say. He looked good normally but right now he looked amazing.

"you look amazing" I awed. he blushed and I walked up to him and hugged him tightly. He hugged me back and I whispered in his ear.

"you are so perfect"

"No im not Benji"

"You're perfect to me" He hugged me tighter and when we let go we walked out our dorm. I grabbed my hand in his and he squeezed my hand and I just felt so happy being with him. I have not been this happy in a long time. We got to the restaurant and we sat down. I couldn't take my eyes off Jorge he is so perfect and I wish I could put into words how much he means to me. Just talking to him was amazing. Ever since we cuddled a few days ago I've been thinking a lot about how mean I was to him. He is so sweet and he didn't deserve what I did to him.

"Jorge I want to apologize for being awful to you junior and senior year. I feel bad and I want to apologize to you. Im sorry Jorge"

"Benji its okay yea it made me upset because im going to be honest I have liked you since junior year but then you started being a dick to me and it hurt and after the party I thought I had a chance but when I went to talk to you the next day you were a jerk and everyday you teased me and hit me but I still liked you but I want to put all that in the past Benji because I really like you and I hope you like me" once he finished speaking my heart hurt. I hurt this boy and I cant believe he still likes me and I forgot about the party.

FLASHBACK

"Hey you are pretty cute" I told this one kid. I didn't know who he was but he was cute. Im straight but he was super cute. He blushed and smiled. I started to kiss his neck and he moaned softly.

"lets take this upstairs" I whispered in his ear. He nodded and we went upstairs and to the spare bedroom. I went in and he was right behind me. Once he shut the door I pushed him against the door and kissed him. I started to kiss and suck his neck leaving dark hickeys. I grabbed his waist and pushed him onto the bed and got on top of him. I took my shirt off and then his. After making out with him I realized what I was doing I got off of him.

"uh im sorry I have to go" I didn't want to be mean but im straight.

*THE NEXT DAY*

JEYJEY POV

"hey Benji" he looked at me weirdly

"get away from me you fag" that hurt.

FLASHBACK OVER

BENJI POV

"Jey im so sorry for that it was rude of me I was just scared. I had never done something like that with a guy and I shouldn't have been mad at you about it"

"Its okay Benji lets just forget about it and we can restart" he smiled. After that we ate and went back to our dorm. We cuddled and watched a movie and it was really nice. Im glad he gave me a second chance even though I didn't deserve it. We fell asleep cuddling and I was so happy having him in my arms.

When we woke up it was 8:30 at night. Jeyjey was still sleeping and I tried not to wake him when I got out of bed but I failed. He opened his eyes and sat up.

"Where are you going" his voice was raspy.

"im going to order us some food its 8:30" He nodded and I ordered us Chinese food because that was the only place we agreed on. After the food got here we both decided to do homework. We both had the same math so we worked on it together. At one point I slammed my book shut and laid down.

"I cant do this anymore" I wanted to cry I didn't understand the material and then I started to have a panic attack. Great. Without my medication anything will trigger them. Im scared that I wont be good enough for college and that im going to fail. Its only the first week and im scared to fail. I hate college already.

"Baby its okay its Friday and the homework isn't due until next Thursday" Jorge whispered. He held me tightly and played with my hair. He knows how to help me. I really like him and I don't deserve me.

"Thank you Jorge" I said. He didn't say anything he just continued to play with my hair and whispering sweet things in my ear.

"im scared im going to fail. What if im not smart enough" I had to started to cry. I was scared to fail im not the smartest person ever. He put his hand on my jaw and he lifted my face and I looked into his eyes.

"Benji you are not going to fail and you will be okay and im going to be here to help you through it all" He made me feel better. After a few minutes I had calmed down and Jorge didn't leave my side once. I don't deserve him especially after what I did to him.

"Thank you for not leaving me"

"Im never going to leave you" I kissed him softly and my hands went to his waist and his wants went to my jaw. Kissing him was amazing and it made all my problems with him.

"Jey I want to take you out to dinner and there is this fancy Italian restaurant a few miles away and I want to take you out" He smiled really big and he kissed me.

"I would love to Benji" I was happy he said yes.

"okay tomorrow I will be here at 7:30" I spoke

"Benji you live here" he laughed a little

"Then we will leave at 7:30" he kissed me and nodded.

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Word count: 1310.             Date: 3-24-20
Sorry I didn't update yesterday I didn't feel well but have an amazing day💕